Heart of Glass (A Pierce the Veil Fanfiction)

XLI

Tony's POV

Somehow, we were all falling apart. The week was ending and I was looking forward to the weekend so I wouldn't have to be around anybody. I just had to get through Friday, which was tomorrow. When I got home from school, Jaime and Valerie were already there just sitting. Valerie looked about ready to break down and Jaime already seemed broken.

"Guys, what's happening?" I shut the door to my room and sat on my bed next to Valerie.

"Dean's harassing me. He's been harassing me since Wednesday and I don't know what to do! I don't want to tell Vic because I know he'll be so mad." Tears formed in Valerie's eyes and I pulled my best friend in for a hug.

"Val, all you had to do was say something. We'll handle it. I promise, we won't let Dean harass you as long as we can stop it. You're not going anywhere alone anymore. Please stay with someone." Jaime put on a protective look and I released her. She blinked back the tears and tried to regain her composure.

"Thanks guys, I just don't want anyone to fight. Please don't go after him or anything. I don't want any trouble. Jaime, how's Belle?" We groaned about her no fighting request and at the mention of Belle's name, Jaime instantly looked like he was going to cry. He didn't say anything at first, just ran a hand through his spiky hair and turned away.

"I don't know. She still won't talk to me. I haven't seen her since we had that fight and I'm worried. Has anyone seen her?"

"Jaime, we're in her neighborhood. Her house is down the road, let's go!" I got everyone up and we all walked to Belle's house and when we knocked on the door, she actually answered it but slammed it when she saw who it was. He mother came out, moments later.

"I'm sorry, Jaime. For whatever reason, Belle doesn't want to talk." She walked back in with a sympathetic smile and we trudged back to Tony's house in silence. Jaime let a few tears fall and Valerie drove home with him. I was left by myself to process everything in my own life.

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The next day, I woke up to my mom turning on the lights, irritated.

"Tony, come on! I have to go to work and you're going to be late for school!" She slammed the door and a minute later, I heard he car leave the house. I rolled my eyes and peeked at the clock.

7:25 a.m.

"Shit!" I scrambled out of bed and took a quick shower while brushing my teeth. I got out, dried my hair, threw on some clothes and a hat, and grabbed my board and my backpack. I flew down the road on my skateboard and when I got to class, I barely made it on time. My stomach let out a low growl.

I'm too hungry for this shit. Can't wait for lunch...

When lunch finally came around, I looked at who was with us. Mike and Jayne were distant for whatever reason, Belle was missing, Valerie was missing and so was Monica. Brent sat with his head down and Anne sat eating in a sad mood. We hadn't talked since I knew she didn't tell me about Monica. Vic looked around the room for his girlfriend and got up to go search for her.

Vic's POV

I went to find Valerie and thought about where she could be. No specific places in the school came to mind so I decided to roam around until I found her. I walked for a few minutes and when I found her, I almost died.

"Valerie, what the hell!?" Instantly, tears filled my eyes at the sight of my girlfriend against the wall with Dean King. He was kissing her and all I could do was watch. She snatched herself away from him and ran over to me. I dodged her hand when she tried to touch me.

"Vic, no! This isn't what you think! I swear I-" I couldn't listen to the girl who just broke my heart so I cut her off.

"No, Valerie! I get cheated on by one, girlfriend and I get cheated on by the next. I guess everyone just wants Dean King more than me. I know I'm not a jock but fucking really!? You've been cheating on me!? No wonder you were acting so fucked up, the guilt must eat you alive! Well don't feel bad anymore. I never want to see your face again but it's not like that bothers you." I shoved past her and when they couldn't see me anymore, I ran. I ran out the school and out to my car. I started it just as I saw green eyes coming out the school and pulled off as fast as I could. My tears blurred my vision and I drove home, knowing my parents wouldn't be there.

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"What the fuck, man!?" I sat up from my laying down position on my bed from the sound of Mike's voice. It took me a second to process his anger, but I realized I forgot to pick him up.

"Shit, Mike! I'm sorry, I forgot. Valerie cheated on me..." Mike's eyes grew wide and he shut the door behind him before taking a seat across from me.

"Seriously? Is that why she was being so depressed?"

"Yeah." Mike was just as suprised as I was and I continued to tell him the story.

"I'm so sorry. That's gotta be rough. Hey, if it makes you feel any better, me and Jayne haven't talked. She caught me making out with Leah." I frowned at my brother's bad decisions. "But anyways, that's rough. Are you guys broken up?" I groaned.

"I don't know. I mean, I want us to be but I never clearly said we were. I know I should hate her but I don't. I love her so much and I can't help it. I felt the tears roll off my cheek and I quickly wiped them away. "Mike, can I be alone?" My brother nodded understandingly and left. I reached for my drawer and pulled out the silver blade that was always there. I peeked down the hallway and heard the front door shut. I immediately jumped up.

I locked the bathroom door behind me and slid the cool blade across my wrists. It cut deep, but not deep enough. I went even deeper, and deeper, and deeper, until I smiled sadly at the sweet relief that came with the feeling of the warm blood on my wrist.

Do I want to die?

As I watched my blood pour into the sink, I realized I didn't. As I felt my head get lighter, I realized I didn't want to die. I quickly cleaned my wrists up to avoid losing consciousness and leaving the world. I worked fast enough and still felt weak as I leaned over the counter and asked fate the only question in my head.

"Why me!?" I banged my fists against the counter and began wrecking the bathroom.

"Why me? Why me!? WHY ME!? WHY. ME!?" I began crying again and let my body go numb as I fell to the floor.

"Why me?" I let myself cry on the floor and didn't get up for what felt like minutes but was really hours.