All I wished for was to stay in contact. I wished to hold them close at one point. I wished to keep my head up. I prayed for the solution. God is letting me figure this one out on my own. Friends. That was all I wanted to be after the break up. Friends. That was all my heart was allowing into my life. He said no. I had no hope in us being close after that. Even though my heart is racing and my hands are shaking, I hold back on trying to stay. Arko lost love for me. I lost love for my own self. I realized that just because someone onced loved me, doesn't mean that they care forever. That feeling does go away, it gets lost in the sea of life and goes to the very bottom to where no one will ever see it again. Lost in my own mind was the true definition of love. FRIENDS are love. God is love. Family is love. Being in love is just being cared for more. All I ever wanted was a friend that understood me, that could help me as I helped them. I lost that person when I became more than friends with them. He became my everything when I should have just stayed away so they would stay safer.
