I never loved you » Chae Hyungwon

Chapter XXII

Song of Chapter:
Gangsta - Kehlani

---

"it's my child isn't it?"

"What did you do to her?" I ask him ignoring the last question.

I don't want to answer it anyways, he will kill her or me.

"I will tell you as you answer me" He says.

"Okay.. remember the night we spend, I became pregnant and Soojin is indeed your child" I admit and feel a tear on my cheek.

"Fuck, why didn't you do an abortion?" He asks madly.

"I am not gonna kill an unborn baby! You think I'm like you but I'm not! I will never even think of killing someone" I yell at him and he sighs.

"You will not see that kid in the next couple months, I'm sorry" He says.

"It's my child! When the fuck did you became so heartless? So cold?" I ask him, I am crying like crazy now.

"You should never made the choices you made 2 years ago, stop crying it doesn't suit you" He says, his expression didn't change at all during this conversation, I can't really tell what kind of expression it is.

It might be a mixture between coldness, madness and... hurt?

"I'm sorry" I say, it's the only thing I can say, I don't want to start a fight with him, I am too tired.

"Go to sleep, I'll see you tomorrow at 8 in the morning" He then says, a bit more care in his voice but not much, just like 0,1%.

"Okay, goodnight" I say but he doesn't reply, he just stares blankly at the wall behind me.

I walk out.

Is this what my life is gonna be now.

I mean, I didn't lost all my feelings for him in this time.

He was and will always be my first love, but I am not his, I have never been someone to him the way he was for me.

I make my way to Shownu and Wonho as I see them in the hallways.

"Do I have the same room as last time or a new room?" I ask them.

"You have the same, you still know the way right?" Shownu asks and I nod slowly.

"Okay goodnight" He says and I say it back as I leave and head towards my room.

As I enter I see the blankets on the floor, the mirror is broken and the bathroom door is wide open.

I guess Hyungwon was really mad.

nothing changed except the broken mirror and stuff.

I sigh and sit down on my bed just letting out the tears.

I don't know where my daughter is, I don't know where Hyunsoo is.

I hear a knock on my door and just keep sitting with my head in my hands.

"Fai- I mean Jiwoo.. Is everything okay?" Shownu's voice fills the room.

"Do I seem like it?" I ask him, I hate my crying face so I still cry my face in my hands.

"Hey if you ever wanna talk about it, I'm here okay?" He says and I look up now.

He looks worried as he sees my face.

"You changed a lot" I speak up and he smiles.

"Thanks" He says.

"I will get going then, I just wanted to check up on you" He says and I nod.