08/15/14
i want to die, you know.
i tried again yesterday. obviously, it didnt work. i cant say im overjoyed with the outcome.
nobody seems to get that im done and that i dont want to be here anymore. im just finished.
my dad told me that i have to stay, at least for him. hes a really good dad. he just wants to see me get married and have children of my own.
honestly, i dont think ill last that long.
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i had a mental breakdown today. i start school tomorrow & i should be sleeping but i cant. its rlly hot in my room even though my house is 67 degrees.