Why can't i get him out my head (Jaegan)

chapter 5 😣

   (Ok hi so first this is my trigger warning sign ❎ y'all I love u hope u enjoy this depressing chapter and this story is mostly going to be in jays pov bye.)

    Justin's pov

        I see my razor and I break it so the blades are just remaining.❎Trigger warning❎ I take one of the blades in pressed against my scent skin it hurts so bad I almost cried. After like six seven Cuts I put the blade up and cleaned up. I go to my closet and put on my sweater I pulled on the sleeve so it covers up my my cuts and I'm not going to lie they are really deep. Trigger warning over.

   I go to my bed and flop on it. I put Netflix on and fall asleep. I wake up of a very unbearable pain in my wrist. I pull my sleeve up and see the cuts and ohh my god they are bleeding "godamnit" I scream from the pain my brother comes running up stairs.

    "Justin whats wrong why are u screaming and cursing, mom and dad are going to hear u" danny said very worried and mad. I honestly don't know why he was mad I was screaming in pain but that's just my brother for you. Oh my God it hurts so bad like there's 40009 knives in my wrist with a gunshot.

  "I'm going to get mom" danny said. "Noooooo danny don't" I scream. "But ur bed is all bloody I have to" danny said even more worried then before.

   "If u get mom i will never talk to u again" I say in pain and mad. "B...b..but I..

   Sorry guys I ended like that but you know me I won't send anything how I like but if you like this go wrote and comment and tell me if he what you want me to do like tell me if you want him to tell his mom or not yeah so see you in the next chapter wait I mean I don't know but hope you like this chapter and I might update later on tonight or tomorrow love you all bye😁😁