Your Love Is My Medicine

1 month later

(To the instrumental of I don't wanna do this anymore)

It's been 1 month since we lost you
And honestly everything's still the same
To be honest all you wanted was some change
But someone just had to take it all away

Now that your gone I've lost all hope for the world
All the colors gone, your just a boy or girl
It seems like nobody cares
Just leaving us here
To figure out things
Making eye contact with our fears

I remember that day like yesterday
I was sitting in bed just playing games
Then someone called me in the next room
Asking me if I just found out the news

I replied with no
Cause I really didn't
I deleted my social media's
Didn't like attention
So I honestly did not know wtf happened

So I went on google
I looked right there on my trending
Saw that you got shot and wasn't really healing

I thought that you could make it
That it was just another thing this time
Wasn't aware that they had ended your life
If only I knew what news I'd get that night

Then they pronounced you dead
All my emotions went straight to my head
Then I screamed out loud why did they do this?

I spent 30 minutes crying in the bathroom
Tears hitting the floor cause I couldn't find tissue
You left me right in the middle of fixing my issues
And I wasn't sure if I could make it without you

Skip a couple days and I tried to forget
My brain just wouldn't lemme handle it
All my decisions I started to regret them
Wondering why I didn't leave that message in your dms
Why I didn't let you know before you were gone
How I was here before everyone knew your songs
About how you changed my life and how I was thankful
That I didn't end it all I swear that I'm grateful

It's been a whole month since you've been gone
And I still have a lot of stuff going on
But thank you for everything showing us our worth
I'll continue to honor you even though it hurts
R.I.P🖤