Ashley's POV
It must be around 11 am and we're all on deckchairs next to the hotel pool. There is some wind but not strong wind. Just as much so you don't feel how hot it really is and start to sweat.
I'm currently reading a book. I didn't have much time to read because work was stressful and I often had to take care of my little sister when my parents couldn't, which happened to be very often due to some serious problems.
"What's it about?" Liam asks. He's on the deckchair to my left. He points at the book.
"What does the title say?" I answer.
"The book thief"
"So what is it about?"
"A guy that steals books?" he questions.
"No, what makes you think that it's a guy? You need to think different. Just because it's about a thief doesn't mean that it can't be a girl. Look at Pascalle, would you think that she's a flight attendant? No, because she's different. Would you think that Sarah is a singer? Again, no. People always assume that just because you are something you need to behave in a certain way but that's not true. Everyone is different. People just don't see it."
"Is it possible that we're kind of talking about something or someone else?" he asks and raises his right eyebrow.
"Maybe."
"Well, I still want to know what the book is about."
"A girl that is adopted by people in Molching that's near Munich and it takes place shortly and during the second world war." I tell him.
"I didn't know that you're into that kind of books."
"Just because I tell you this it doesn't mean that this is the reason I like the book." I hear him sigh and chuckle.
"Then what makes you like the book?" Harry, who is to my right asks.
"The girl can't read and develops her passion for it when her adoptive dad teaches her how to read and to write. I like that the girl isn't one of those typical girls and plays football with the boys that live in Himmel Street. I like that she falls in love with her best friend without even noticing. I love the way she cares about Max, a Jew her family hides in the basement. Oh, and when her adoptive mother says Saumensch or Saukerl I always have to laugh."
"Why don't you say that when you're asked?" Liam wants to know.
"Because that isn't what the book is about. See it like I do or not, but personally I think the book is about Death. Many people die, the jewish people, the people they sent to war, the innocent people whose houses are bombed. There is no way in convincing me that the book is about something else."
"You're smart." Harry blurts out.
"Thank you." I giggle.
I continue reading and I'm totally in my thoughts until something catches my attention.
"... because I'm pregnant!" Eleanor shouts. Apparently her and Zayn have gotten into an argument about going hiking.
Everyone is silent and turns their attention towards her. She looks worried at each of us.
"Babe! There's nothing to worry about a baby is great!" Perrie says while hugging Eleanor tightly.
"Yeah, I totally agree" Sarah says with a smile.
"Can I ask you guys something though?" Eleanor asks.
"Of course." Pascalle answers.
"Would you guys want a baby right now? If you were me, or Louis, would you look forward to the baby?"
"Definitely!" everyone says at once except for me.
"What about you Ashley?" Louis asks.
"I uh.. I'm not sure. I don't really know you but I'm 100% sure that you will be great parents, it's just that I personally wouldn't want a baby now that's why I had to think about it."
"May I ask why?" Eleanor smiles.
"Bec-" I want to say but Niall interrupts me.
"She doesn't want to ruin her perfect model figure." he says with a wink. I think I'm going to explode.
"That is definitely not true." I say through grittet teeth.
"What is it then? Are you afraid that you're unemployeed when you have a baby? That no one would book a model with a kid?"
"No? Do you even know what you're saying?"
"Yes I do. So do you mind telling us why?" the mean undertone in his voice is impossible to be missed.
"You know what? I'm not going to tell you anything because ever since we were at the airport you were mean! You say things that aren't true and you don't even consider that I might not be like everyone else and I'm sick of it! You know nothing about me cause if you did, you would know why I don't want a baby right now! I really don't have it easy and I don't need you to make it even worse so just leave me alone will you!" I start to yell at the top of my lungs when my voice cracks and tears start to fill my eyes.
I grab throw my book into my bag, rip my towel off the deckchair. Then I walk away, tears running down my face.
"Ashley! Stop! Don't go!" I turn around, facing my best friend who looks at me in shock.
"Why does he hate me so much." I start to sob when Sarah hugs me.
"Babe, I think he doesn't hate you. I assume that he likes you a lot, and doesn't want to admit it."
Dropping the topic I tell her something else.
"Sarah, my Mu- my Mum..." I start.
"Is it becoming worse?"
"Way worse." I nod sadly.
"I'm sorry to hear that." she hugs me even tighter. "What about the rest of your family? How do they deal with it?"
"Katie is too young to understand what's going on and my Dad and Michael just try to live with it like I do. Mike and I also take care a lot of Katie cause Dad's with Mum."
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At dinner I haven't spoken to anyone and when we were done eating I walked up to Niall's and my room. Currently I'm on the balcony, my feet resting on the railing.
I watch the sky and notice a shooting star so I make a wish.
Please make my Mum feel better.
"Ashley?" a male voice says silently.
"Hm?" I turn towards him.
"I want to apolo-"
"Save it Niall. Don't apologize when you don't mean it. We both know that it will happen again."
He stares at the ground for a while and then goes back inside. Just then, a single teardrop rolls down my cheek.
Maybe the problem isn't that he likes me, maybe it's that I like him.
Maybe... always those possibilities. I'm sick of them.
Maybe your Mum will be better soon. Maybe your Dad will need help with Katie when Mum isn't able to help. The list goes on and on.
~ AN: hey :) hope you like this chapter! i won't tell you what's happening with her mum because i'm mean mwuahaha you'll have to continue reading if you want to find out, vote and comment please i love you guys xx
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Fanfiction"I wouldn't date a model because models are perfect", he said. Will One Direction member Niall Horan change his mind when a very special model crosses his path?
