July 19 11.40 PM
Some existence in the world
May matter a lot to each individuals
And yours seems to be something
I'd count as great yet disappointing
You hurt me badly, every single time you're around
You light up a fire inside me
And it was not a kind of fire that creates inner spirits
It was always one that burns with cruelty, leaving me in heartache
With all that you have
Your little games
Your unnecessary texts
Your girlfriend
And I had tried not to crave you
I hate you then because you were always the one to blame for all the daydreams I had about the two of us and the reason I start to reach the highest emotional point and followed by all the wasted tears I'm unable to hold in because the thing is that those nice things will never happen, we aren't a meant to be thing, you know?
One time I wished that all these scenarios in our lives were somehow would lead into a love story
And frankly, it doesn't.
I will always be that insecure girl in the same class of you for two damn years that happens to have a crush on you and you will always be that guy who favorites my tweet, texts me in random times asking about homeworks or other school stuffs, calls me out whenever you need my earphones
And I'll just be on my bed muttering the lyrics of You Belong With Me while you'll be somewhere cool with all the jocks or may be on the phone with your girlfriend
That will always be us, divergently living in different nights
Now can't you see?
I'm fragile, I'm broken enough, I can't do anything about us
Yet I still pray in the silent nights
That all these cruel paths and scenarios were somehow lead into a beautiful thing whether it is love or it is not.
