A Second Chance

Prolouge

It's been rough living in this "heaven" for coming up on 16 years. All I want to do is go back to Earth. To live and breathe for real again. To feel the earth under your feet and the wind in your hair. Even if the wind messes up my hair; it would be a welcome feeling. I want the chance to love.

     My name is Lowren Winserton. I have been in heaven for almost 16 years. I died when I was two. A car crash that killed my dad, my twin brother and I. My dad was a good man, so he got to go to heaven because of that. He always did everything in his ability to put others first or at least make them happy. My dad was not a believer, but a good person, even if he did technically kill two of his kids. Accidently of course.

     My brother and I got to be here by default. How can two year olds be bad? Generally speaking they can't, but I guess there could be the strange exception of a troubled toddler who does some bad things but I wouldn't know. They wouldn't be here and we are not told much of what happens outside our little bubble except about our Person.

     Each angel here has a Person, even if they aren't going to go back to Earth. If an angel is too old to get another chance, they are a guardian and are assigned their Person to keep safe and guide as much as they can without interfering. I am told is a tough job, and I imagine it would be.

     For those of us that DO get to go back to Earth, our Person is who we must get to fall in love with us. When we are in Heaven, we get to watch over them a little. Only enough to know who they are and some about them. But we never get to know enough. If we learned too much, it'd either be easy to court them or it would freak them out and the angel would have to spend the rest of the year knowing they messed up and would be returning to heaven to watch over people for the rest of eternity. Or for however long heaven and hell lasts.

     Unfortunately, I think hell works similarly, at least with the young ones who get to go back to Earth; again, we don't know much. We assume that the "demons" get to see their Person, who is also one of our People, enough to know a little bit about who they are. It would only be fair, but is fair really the way they have been known to play? Look at the entire biblical history for that answer if you don't already know it.

     You must be wondering who decides all of the stuff that has to do with us Deservers: three very powerful, very old angels.

     Raguel: In charge, really. He runs this who operation of some of us getting to go back again. HE loves fairness and doesn't think it's fair that some of us had to die young and not get the chance to really live. Especially those like my brother and I who don't even remember what our mother's face looked like.

     Blaz: The serious one. He controls the Deserver from hell that the angels must thwart to stay on Earth. Some say he is evil and likes to make the fight unfair, but that is probably just a rumor considering Raguel.

     Seraphine: A demon. I know what you're thinking, I said three ANGELS, but she is another one of those exceptions. She lives in both heaven and hell, making sure both are still following all the rules set in place. She is arguably the most powerful of the three because she has the power of both the places she is living in. Some call her a traitor because she could be screwing us, but there is no proof. For all we know, she could be making this "game" a lot easier for the demons. Again, there is no proof.

     I am so close to having to face those three angels. A couple of days and I will be either going back to Earth to find love, or not. Or I will be rejected and become a guardian angel for the rest of the days. Nerves have set in. Every time my wandering mind finds the date, my stomach tightens and I feel a little like throwing up whatever happens to be in my stomach.

    I can't tell if some of those feelings are from excitement or if it's all fear. Should I be excited? Or should I just blow this "interview" and just stay here in heaven with my dad. My brother would probably go back to Earth. He hasn't shown any indications of being nervous.

     If we both go, I highly doubt my brother and I would even see each other. We are probably going to get tossed on complete opposite sides of the Earth. Are we allowed to get in contact with each other? More importantly, can I see my mom?

     I have so many questions, but I know that I do want to go back there. If for nothing else, for my Person. My Harper.