letters || niall horan.

february 25th, 2013.

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hi niall!

I'm gonna count down the days, right now, it's 20 days to go. 20 days, and I will see you. I don't know if I'll be able to wait that long. Ever since the day my mom told me the surprise, i've been thinking about how it will be, will it be awkward, will it be sad, will it be happy? I'm nervous, very nervous. The thing is, after that day, after the moment, that i've met you, I will think about it for the rest of my life, that day will be the only thing keeping me together, but for you, it's just another normal meeting, you meet fans, you forget them in a matter of time, cause there are already a hundred of other fans you'll be meeting. You don't understand how much that hurts.

Do you ever wonder that maybe the person that you're so hopelessly in love with, will one day feel the same about you? Do you ever wonder if they think about you every day? Just like you think about them? Do you ever wonder if you're important to someone? If you're ever loved by someone? Loved for who you are, for the real you. Because I do. I always think those things. 

This day has been good so far, nothing has happened, ever since the day my mom told me I'm going to meet you guys, I haven't tried to do something stupid anymore, I haven't even think about it. I think it's because I know that I have to stay strong, and alive, if I want to meet you. I've been eating enough these days, but I still think i'm fat or too skinny. I just don't want you to think of me like i'm some weird patethic girl. I want you to like me, but most importantly,

I want you to remember me. 

Love,

Ashley *:･ﾟ✧

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Soooo, I didn't update yesterday, cause to be honest, I completely forget, i'm sorry hotties. 

I'll make sure to update tomorrow ok, i love you guys a lot just so you know :)

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