My Blue Valentine, SasuSaku.

My Blue Valentine

   " It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can't have them in your arms.  " 

Chapter 1

Author's POV

After Sasuke's departure, Sakura and Sarada are once again left alone. 

Sakura looks supportive about his traveling, yes but that's how it looks. In the inside, all she wants is for the man whom she loves to be beside her and their child.

Sarada is supportive of it, but ofcourse.. she wishes that her father would be with them much more often, she wishes for her mother's happiness and her own happiness.

Like that quote, " It's waiting for something that might never happen ", one sided love.

That hope that Sakura has, is it worth it? Is it worth loving someone so much but.. you don't know how the other feels like?

Sakura goes to her usual place.. work.

How fun.

She entered her office, but one thing she hated about work was.. her co-workers.

Yes they are fun, but sometimes.. the co-workers talk about their relationships.. making the pinkette's heart feel empty.

" So.. i just discovered that what i had with my so called boyfriend was actually one sided love.. THAT JERK! "

" So what are you gonna do? "

" I'm staying with him, i love him so much.. i don't think i'd be able to live without him.. "

" Look, one-sided love is dangerous, okay?- "

"-It's loyalty. It's reassurance. It's commitment. It's intimacy. It's depth. It's strength. It's a reason to live longer. It's a reason to have faith in life. Real love heals. One-sided love breaks. Stay away from him. "

Sakura's eyes widened, she couldn't help to relate to her young co-worker. It hurts, it hurts when you have someone in your heart but can't have them in your arms.

It hurts, it's like if someone shot a bullet straight into her heart, she gritted her teeth out of frustration, she wished that her ears would be covered so she didn't have to listen at her truthful words.

As they continued chatting about it, the pinkette covered her ears, but the noise was still to loud to ignore.

" If someone doesn't fight to keep you, never fight yourself to stay. "

" SHUT UP! " Sakura yelled in frustration, she has never been so harsh with her co-workers, and it honestly also surprised her.

Her co-workers stopped talking, and just left the room, leaving a sad Sakura to think about those words that kept repeating in her head.. " If someone doesn't fight to keep you, never fight yourself to stay. "

" Never fight yourself to say.. " She whispered only for her to hear.

She faked her smile as tears threatened to fall. " But how..? "

~~ Meanwhile ~~

She finished work early, she bought few things for dinner.. dinner for herself only.

Sarada was out doing a mission with her team, that meant loneliness for the pinkette. She arrived at the quiet apartment, it was dark, lonely, sad and every picture reminded her of the man who she loved.

The pictures had something of her, memories. Memories of sadness, happiness, and of pain.

She wondered, would her life be better if she hadn't had fallen in love? Would it be happier?

Yes it would.

But too bad that it's too late to regret. Too late to say no, too late to back out, way too late.

As much as she didn't want to admit it.. the love she once felt was disappearing. 

She fell onto her knees, breaking down into tears. All these tears she shed belonged to him, she couldn't help to regret her decisions, while she is crying for him.. he is out there who knows where with who knows who.

As much as she wanted happiness for her child.. what about hers? What about her feelings? Her happiness?

The marriage she has is in a low state, it has chances of breaking, she was aware of that yet.. why? Why does she decide to continue? Why if the only thing it will lead to is heartbreak, why?

Simple, what she felt was puppy love.

She thought that what she felt was real. That's what she thought. She told her self it was real. It really wasn't. And now she's trapped in the lie she told herself.

One lie leads two the second, and it's a endless life made out of lies.

How to escape out of this hell she's now stuck in?

She looked around the apartment, finding knifes.

She stared at them, wondering what to do next. Death. Suicide. 

Wouldn't it be better? For her to just die? Isn't it away to escape from this big lie?

She got caught into what seems to be.. Blue Valentine, failure of marriage.