I saw him today. It pains me to see him happy with her. He deserves the happiness anyway. Besides, It's my loss. I lost him. It's too late, I can't make him fall for me again. He hates me, he despise me so much. I chose the guy I like over the guy I love. Yes, I love him but I pushed him away from me. He got sick of me, he's tired of exerting effort for nothing. I wasted his love for me, I threw it away. I wanted to chase him but I don't want to ruin his relationship with her.
I saw him laugh, a real one. After I dumped him, I never saw him laugh nor smile until he met her. He's now laughing and I can even see the sparks in his eyes that I never appreciated before.
"Brix, I want you to be happy even if it's not with me. I'm sorry for wasting everything you did for me. I hope Jasey won't do what I did. Anyways, I'm sure she won't. She's beyond perfect, she deserves your love more than I do. You also deserve to be happy in the arms who will take you now, love you forever and leave you never. I hope she's the one who always texts back and never lets you fall asleep thinking you're unwanted, the one who sees stars in your eyes and hear melodies in your heartbeats, the one who will make you laugh on hard days. But beyond that, I hope she's the one who will never leave you behind and never take you for granted, stand by you when you're right even when you're wrong. The one one who sees you at your worst and has loved you still. The one who wouldn't have you any other way. You can kill me with words but don't forget about me even if I left a scar on you heart. Be happy, Brix. I'm sorry for realizing it too soon that I love you."
I said to him from afar then walked away with my heart in pieces. He didn't hear me and it kills me to know that but I deserve this agony anyway. I miss him but I'd rather not bother him.
