I Constantly Thank God For Solangelo

Anxiety

(I wasn't sure what to name this chapter)

Trans boi Will also this is a high school + a first kiss au so both of my boys are awkward peanuts thank you

and ummmmm I published a Jercy alphabet thing and no one is giving it love oof I know Jercy isn't a popular ship but the chapters are only one hundred words on average (the first chapter is, like, six hundred), please uwu (there will be updates every Monday).

ALSO, I'M WORKING ON SOMETHING ELSE AND I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR IT but I don't want to give too many details right now. Maybe in the next month-ish or so

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Will had never told his boyfriend that he was transgender. But in the back of his mind, as the days wore on, a tiny part of his brain constantly nagged at him too.

He usually told that part of his brain to shut up, because he liked his boyfriend and he liked that they were dating. He didn't want to ruin what they had, and he was sure telling Nico he was trans would.

But at the same time he felt like each passing day, he was making the situation worse.

And it was only when Nico was over at his house one day after school that it seemed to really crash down on him. He had zoned out halfway through what Nico was saying, quickly getting lost in his own thoughts.

They had been together for months now, and Will still hasn't told him. He had told his ex after a month of dating. But then again, things hadn't gone well from there, and they had a nasty break up. Will was honestly surprised that Bryce hadn't gone around school telling everyone that he was trans just to mess with him, but he supposes Bryce just didn't want anyone to know he was dating a tranny.

Will's features turn into a slight frown. There are times where he seriously considers coming out to the whole school just to fuck with him, but he'd never actually do it. But he liked to think that when he needed a boost of confidence because usually, he'd panic about telling someone he knows and trusts, but telling a bunch of judgemental teenagers? He could just imagine how badass he'd feel if he did that. He could also imagine how scared he'd feel.

"Will?" Nico asks, frowning. He's leaning forward, and Will takes the time to study his face. Nico wasn't the type of person to break up someone just because they were trans, right? "Are you okay?"

"Yeah," Will blinks, taking a second to recollect himself, "yeah, sorry."

"If I was boring you, you could have just told me, you know. Don't make me waste my breath, Solace," Nico huffed, crossing his arms. Will felt his eyes widen and he quickly shakes his head as he felt himself starting to panic.

"No, I'm sorry I really didn't mean-" he cuts himself off when he sees Nico smirk, and he glares, punching Nico's shoulder, "you asswipe." Nico laughs.

"I'm sorry," Nico says, not sounding sorry in the slightest, and kisses Will's cheek, making Will blush, "But really, are you okay?" He asks, winding his arms around Will's waist and burying his face in Will's neck. Will feels himself blush, but he lets his cheek rest on top of Nico's black, fluffy curls, letting his hands rest on Nico's lower back.

"'M fine," Will mutters, closing his eyes, "just got some stuff on my mind I guess."

"What kind of stuff?" Nico prompts. Will purses his lips.

"Nothing important, really."

"If it has you thinking about it while I'm talking, then it must be pretty damn important," he dramatically says. Will hums, but doesn't say anything. Nico pulls back after a minute and gives him a warm look. "You know you can talk to me if you need to?"