Should I worry that no one can see the deep hidden depression buried beneath me? I don't know if my feeling are to put to worry no one seems to get my pain. I guess I shouldn't run away every time I get sad it only puts my friends to worry I don't know, I want to make things right but I have no clue how.
Should I risk the chance my feelings will overwelm me and I can't hold it in any longer? I know its bad but I can't put anyone to worry about me it would make me even more depressed. I can't have it on my shoulders. I can't have the pressure.
I know I shouldn't complain but what am I to do? I am so lost and I can't seem to get off this roller coast and if I do then what I am tired of all the downs all I want or should I say I need more ups. I might write this as a journal but I need to get my feelings out before I fall apart and then when that happens I don't know if I can pull it back.
I can't have this kind of pain no more. I need help and there are only certain people I can trust with my secrets and life. Every one else they only see my happy side, not the feelings underneath. I can never reveal the true me until we get to be friends and we start actually talking. Well thats all for right now so umm like bye....
