Heart of Stone (Choi Siwon Fanfiction)

Prologue

I flinched by the moment i heard the door slammed, making it the loudest sound for this night. 

Our situation got even worse than it was before. I sat up but my eyes still remained closed and tears on my cheeks had already dried up. I kept my head down and hugged my knees to hide my face; afraid to see his face and will burst out crying again. 

For the past nights, i haven't gotten myself a proper sleep yet and that made me even more stressed and fraustrated than i ever was. Slowly, the door creeked open on our bedroom. He stood there for awhile, thinking whether he should approach me or not, but later decided to. 

Hearing his footsteps getting closer, the tears slowly formed on my eyes again. 

The image i saw earlier kept on flashing back to my head.

I can't point out to where i lack, what mistake, or even just one reason for him to do that.

I thought I was doing my role perfectly fine, but because of the incident earlier, made me realize he wasn't really content to the effort i gave to our relationship.

From the start, i knew it would turn out this way but i thought I could make it all work.

I tried to extend my patience on him, even lowered down my pride. I did everything for him.

When i forgave him and gave him yet another chance, he would, then again, commit the same mistake over and over again until i grew somewhat tired of it.

"Yeonsu-yah.." 

He gently called as he wrapped his hand around my shoulder.

It was the same voice and also the same gesture he would use whenever he would ask forgiveness. I knew him too well, a little too well.

It stabbed my heart to hear those voice again. I'd rather have him yell at me every night, bossing me around to do this and that, saying how could i be considered as his wife when i can't do this or that. Though it always hurted me whenever he treats me that way, i got used to it. But everyone has their own limits, right?

Back then, there were no nights that i haven't cried. I always ask myself, what did i do to have such treatment from him?this marriage, we both didn't want this. but my parents both threathened me, saying if i don't marry him, i'd go homeless and will be disowned as their child. and so i was forced to.

At first, i thought it wasn't that bad, but day by day, every encounter i had with him, made me feel how hell would be like when i die. 

"Yeonsu-yah.."

He called me again. I looked up to him and realized our faces were just inches away.

I stared at his puppy-like eyes, that seemed like pleading for my forgiveness, again.

But what can i do? Everytime he would treat me in a harsh manner, my heart slowly turned to stone.

"I.." I tried to think of the consequences i would get when i say this, or the possible things i would experience. but both my mind and heart had already decided. and if what i will about to do will make me suffer even more, i'd gladly accept it. As long as i know, It would give me back my freedom.

"I want a divorce." I smiled sadly as the tears finally rolled down on my face.