Fast Times At Clairemont High

Chapter 16

I woke up this morning with the realization of what happened yesterday and you know what? I was perfectly fine with that. I was happy to loose my virginity to someone like Kellin. He was sweet, beautiful, had an amazing personality, and was quite frankly just pure perfect. Sure, he had his flaws, but so did I. I love his flaws because loving him means loving everything about him so I have to love the bad things. Don't get me wrong here, I'm not forcing myself to love the the bad things, I just do. Nothing is perfect and I know I over-exaggerate when I say Kellin is perfect, but understand that I actually mean it. We'll always have our ups and downs but that's just how relationships are meant to be. He'll always have a special place in my heart no matter what happens.

The boy himself brought me out of my thoughts, grumbling something I didn't quite hear. I guess he woke up before me for once. He didn't look particularly happy. He quite obviously wasn't a morning person.

Kellin stood up quickly, looking paranoid. "Kell what's wrong?" I asked him a bit worriedly. He put on an obliviously fake smile shaking his head at me. I gave him a look as in saying, 'I know you, now spit it out.'

He sighed before speaking "I, uh, it's not actually a big deal, honestly. There's nothing we can do about it anyway," he spoke the last part quietly, probably hoping I wouldn't hear but I did.

"Kell, would you just tell me what's wrong already?" I said kind of agitated.

"I want my dad to accept me. He never has and we just haven't been the same since he found out I liked dick up my ass," he snapped at me. As soon as he said that he looked like he regretted it. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to say it like that. It's just after what happened at my old school he won't even look at me without a disgusted look..." he trailed off.

My heart ached for him. My dad had left my mom and I, taking my brother Mike with him. I knew how he felt, just under different circumstances. I also realised that I didn't know what had happened in his old school to make him move to mine.

"It's his own loss Kells. You're an amazing person. Maybe you just need to talk to him about it and then everything will go back to normal. If you don't mind me asking what happened at you old school...?" I trailed off really hoping I wasn't going to make him even more upset.

"Nothing will go back to normal Vic. He thinks I'm more like a daughter than a son. At my old school... just... I'm not sure how, but they found out I was gay, they, uh, no one wanted to be around in case they caught 'the gay' so I was a loner. Don't get me wrong, being alome was fine until, um, the jocks wanted some fun. So, one day they decided to beat me up. The school pretty much told me not to go back, so, well, I moved." He told me like he was ashamed, using air quotations around 'the gay'.

I looked at him with sympathy, no one's parents should be like that. I kind of knew how he felt, with my dad leaving and all. I wanted his father to realise what he was doing to Kellin and I wanted him to be fine with being gay. He looked like he was ashamed but there was absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.

"Kell, I know you feel ashamed but don't be, go home and talk to your dad. Make sure he knows how you feel and remember I'm a phone call away, just ring me if you need, I'll always be there for you," I said, looking him directly in the eyes. Kellin smiled at me lovingly before crashing his lips to mine in a messy, needy kiss. "Now go," I said when we pulled apart. Kellin smiled at me one last time before changing into some clean clothes and leaving.

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Hey guys, I'm sorry but my updates will be a lot further apart. I really need to concentrate on my schooling so it means less updates for a while. I'm sorry, but I will try to keep updating anytime I can. There's a large chance my updates will be once a week, if that.