The last time we talk was April 4 and right now it's july 26... I need to work on my texting skills. I do miss her but i feel like if i texted her it would seem wired. She was alway the person i could vent to. She also vented to me... The day we met its was like the world was finally on my side, like the sun shined a little brighter. This was when i was about to go into 6th grade when i didnt have any friends. The first time i saw her she was wearing a crybaby shirt wich i LOVED. I was wearing a MCR shirt and she came up to me and said i love love love your shirt and then our friendship started. Also i should mention we were at camp wich is 2 hours away from were i live. The camp was 4 days those were the best days of my life. The night before we all had to leave they had a dance. The last dance she was at it was a Valentine's dance and i wont go into details but there is resons why she hates dances. At the time i hated them to wich was a plan for disaster. Something randomly clicked when we were sitting and she started having a panic attack. Wihle she was having it her friends that were there left. So i was trying to help her. When she calmed down i asked if she wanted a hug she said yes and after we huged she was calm we sat there and talked almost the whole party until we were forced to dance by her friends. We had fun overall. Then the day we had to leave she handed me a note and said not to read it until i was in the car.so i waited and the read it.... I still am shocked over what she said i read it every day and brang it every where i went untill i lost it but in the note she said i was the nicest person shes ever met. Wich i still cant believe. After camp we texted every single day. We talked about everything including dogs cats youtube and even death. The rest of this story is going to include so touchy subjects you've been warned.
One night i was talking to my boyfriend (wich is now my ex) when he said some stuff that still hurts me now i do not want to repeat them so please respect that. But that night i was already in a depressive mood and that just crushed me and i was planing on taking my own life because i was hurting so bad. I decided to talk to talk to my friend from camp (im not going yo use her name) she literally saved my life by doing some stuff wich again i wont say. And after that i knew i could rant about anything to her including personal suff i wont share. But after one of are conversations she never texted me back. And its been awile so i stoped trying to get her attention i sae no reason but lately this has been taring me apart and i think i know why now. Wich I will share why later.
