dont go (bring me the horizon fanfic)

i remember june twelve so clearly

your cold flesh against the warmth of mine

my heart sinking to my stomach

your words smooth.

"dont go"

i whispered,tears filling my eyes like a pool.

"crying leaves the soul broken"

escaped from his lips

softly,his hand reached for my wrist

carefully examining it with a frown upon his face

"no more self destruction.its what the monster wants,dont let him have it."

He loosen his grip and let my wrist fall to my side.

leaning in,He kissed my lips

cold and lovingly as always

"i love you"

He whispered

i watched him turn away,leaving me nothing but pain and misery.

tears fell down my cheeks

but i showed no emotion upon my face

i knew He was gone

never to come back

the gravel crunching beneath my feet as i walked back to my flat

"i am the ocean,i am the sea,there is a world,inside of me.i am the ocean,i am the sea,there is a world,inside of me."

~

letting out a loud sigh

i pulled out the house key from under the matt

it scraping against the cement

"Raven"

i heard from behind

i spun around to lay my eyes on a boy covered in tattoos

"may i help you?"

i asked,unimpressed.

"i came by to inform you about some shootings in our neighbour hood"

i raised an eyebrow

"okay,thanks love"

i nodded at him,watching him blush at the fact of calling him love

i quickly opend my door,leaving the boy standing in my yard

without Any intention,i slammed the door shut.

thoughts ran through my head as i glanced at framed photographs hanging upon the halls wall's.

i felt as If Oli left but still remained

and i hated it.

rage filled my mind

the monster started to speak

"distroy every memory"

it whispered

~

i let out a piercing scream that filled the hall

frustration and pain

i went to every picture

ripping it off the wall and smashing it against the tile

shardes of glass finding there way into the palm of my hands