u run into ur room smashes the door. U get tears into ur eyes when u tought about the fact that u lost ur best friend Ashton in the plane crash when the band needed to head over to NY city. u looked up and crashed down.'I'm gonna miss u y/n' 'im gonna miss u even more' u looked eachoter in the eyes but didnt realize that u both were leaning ithose memories... te last u chared with him. kissing him goodbye. ' i cant live without u Ashton' looking into his eyes. 'its not a goodbye forever babe' he wispered to u. Ur tears start tearong even more u stood up start throwing stuff around about the madness u where troubled into sience he went to heaven. u started screaming ' I CANt HANDLE THIS!!!!' and start breaking all pictures with him u had. Luke hearwd noices upstairs. 'Ill go' he said looking at Calum. 'she is still atuck with it Luke, make her calm'. 'i will try to do my best' he runes upstairs. 'y/n , open the door!' he yelled knocking the door loudly. 'I WANNA DIE!!!!! I WANT TO DIE!!!!!' u yelled while breaking everything in the middle. 'open the door please babe!!!!!' luke said. u took a knife that u hided for Ashton because he knew u where in trouble with yourself. 'im dying, ill be with him... do it' u wispered to urself while a tear drops down ur cheek. luke smashes the door in 'STOP!!!'. u turned ur head looking at Luke who got teara into his eyes.'i need to be with him Luke...' u said crying. ' I have to be with him.' ' no babe I need u....with me....' he said walking slowly to u. 'Calum, michael and I need u so badly babe...we don't want u to go.' u looked at the knife and put it in ur arm.' I Cant..' u said closing ur eyes. 'please stop y/n' e walked closer to u and sat down right next to u on his knees. ' I need u. talk to me dont do this to us.... to urself...' u throwed the knife away and pulles Luke into a huge hug. 'i love u I dont want u to leave us behind.' luke said trying to fight his tears. 'why did Ashton do it tough... he didnt deserve this Luke.., he fucking really didnt!!!' Luke took ur head and looked straight into ur eyes. ' we miss him to,we really do but he is now in a better place.... he is watching ua from above where he can protect us acpecially u, he loves u.' he said looking into ur eyes. ' I just miss him... I miss his smile,his eyes, his hugs, his awkward little dirty talks, his....' u got tears again.'his what love? ' luke said. 'his soft lips that tasted like strawberries.' u said while getting a little smile on ur face. luke looked down knowing now u and Ashton kissed eachoter...' he loves u lots but u have to move on... its over two years now babe.' he said. u hugged him while snuggling in his chest. u lay down on the ground just layong there saying nothing. we'll get trough this...' he said wispering and kissing ur head while pulling u closer. ' we will get trough this hunny.' 'u closed ur eyes and held him tight the whole evening.
