Why Do You Do This? (YouTuber FF) *under editing*

Eating Tongue

Day 6 out of the 14 day trip.

The past two days have been spent making and editing a video. It takes two days at least to make one video. The first is actually filming it and the second day is, how Tyler puts it, killing our babies. Basically, only keeping the good babies and deleting the bad babies. There is no homicide involved. The video is about traveling to a different country. Things I expected and didn't expect. Nothing much, just a video of the week. Not much has happened in the past few days. Tyler and Troye are the only two people I have physically talked to. I have texted Dan and been on twitter a bit but that doesn't count. Basically, I have been a hermit in a cave. I haven't left the room either. I make Tyler or Troye bring me food. Then we will sit in my room mowing down until we may explode.

Yesterday, Phil uploaded the video we filmed. It turned out quiet good. So have the cookies. I tried one and they are delicious.

A few nights ago when I went on the date with Patrick and Dan had to come and get me, when I walked into Tyler's room I couldn't help but feel guilt at the conversation we had. "Where the fuck have you been. It's been two minutes and I haven't even gotten a call. Girl, what is wrong with you?" He says as I walk into the door, completely ignoring him and plopping down on his bed. "I have something to tell you!" He says joining me in the bed. We sit facing each other. He has a huge smile in his face that makes me smile. "I was just coming back from hanging out with Troye. He stayed back for a moment to talk with someone so I left. There was this fine piece of ass in the lobby checking in. Let me tell you, his body was just-my body was ready! So I though, hey, why not try and see what happens. So I walk up to him and say hello. He says that he saw me from somewhere. Then I though, oh no! I can't fuck a fan, things could leak or something. Then he says that he recognized me from the Trevor Project. He says that it really helped him through hard times. Then he asked me if I wanted to get a pizza." He says excitingly, moving his hands around at every word like he normally does. "And what did you say?"

"I said no." I look at him strangely. "Why did you say no."

"Because I saw your tweet about him being a douche bag, so I wanted to be here for you if you wanted to talk about it. Because girl, I know how much you love to rage." Of course, this made me upset that he didn't go out and enjoy London. So I asked him is he had this guys number and of course he did. So I made him go out. I go to my room and do what I wanted to do, sleep.

So right now is the first time leaving my hotel room since that night. Tyler, Troye and I are going to Zoe's apartment to film a video. Alfie will be joining too. Also, I have decided to look somewhat decent for the video. My loose fitted tank top that says 'Let It Be', another Fab Four quote. Since again it is much to cold for no sleeves, I put on my leather jacket. Black leggings or jeans wouldn't look good with this so I put on faded blue jeans. My wonderful galaxy shoes and my hair lightly curled. My fabulous exploding TARDIS backpack with my camera and laptop in it. I think I look quiet nice actually. Something different than an oversized sweatshirt and leggings. No matter how much I love my leggings and sweatshirt, sometimes it's worn to much. Instead of taking a taxi which is expensive and time consuming, we take the Tube to Brighton.

The train was full of people but enough for everyone to sit at a table. We had to sit toward the back. The train rocks back and forth, out the windows is nothing but black. The train stops a few times to pick up and drop off some passengers. A teenage girl, few years younger than me, board the train. She is wearing a 'Professional Fangirl' sweatshirt. She sits at a table a few ways off. I poke Tyler in the ribs and nod to the girl. "Get her attention." I whisper to him. "What?". I roll my eyes and say it a bit louder. "Get her attention. It will be cute. You'll make her day." He sits there thinking for a moment. But, he is taking to long. I need to do something to make them notice him before they get off. Plus, I want to get this moment on camera. I love seeing fans.