Until I Die

Chapter 4

My mom drove us home, but first we needed to stop at the drug store. My mom ran in quickly while I sat in the car and looked at my phone. I only got like one text from one of my "friends" that's day. It read,

"What the actual fuck Maddie!! you fucking cut? I knew something was always wrong with you." I rolled my eyes and threw my phone down and let the tears fill my eyes.

I heard the car doors unlock and my mom got in. She placed a bag on my lap so, of course, I opened it. It had my favorite candy in it. Hershey's bar, Reese's cup, and sweet tarts. I smiled and kissed my mom's cheek.

"Thank you, mama." I whispered trying not to show her my emotions.

"No problem... sweetie it's okay to cry and let it all out." I didn't reply. I just bit my lip and let her drive.

When we got home I went up to my room and buried my head into my pillow. I cried and I cried. I heard a slight knock at my door and saw my brother walk in.

"Hey. Uhm... bad time?" he asked. "No come... sit." I replied softly.

I sat up and he looked at me sympathetic.

"Everyone is talking about you, Maddie." I nodded,

"I know Sam. I know. I want you to know that all that shit they say is so fake!" He nodded and hugged me.

"Love you, Sammy." I whispered in his ear during our hug. He whispered back, "It's okay to die. I won't be bothered and I love you too."

That sentence hit me like a bomb... "It's okay to die." Maybe it was okay to die.

Daddy was too busy drinking and doing drugs again so he wouldn't care. Mom is too busy with work so how would it affect her. Sam, well maybe he would cry but I think he would be okay. The only person who would be affected is Julia and she lives 100 miles away so why would she care.

I walked into my bathroom and locked the door. I opened a bottle of pills and slung them back. They each slithered down my throat in a single swallow.