Loveless Passion

Chapter 2

Jason’s POV

        It was the same dream as always. I was watching my father as he raped my mom and then beat her until she died. I couldn’t do anything, I was strapped to a chair. Screaming into the piece of cloth that was jammed into my mouth by my father. I kept trying to scream but nothing would come out. I felt my body being shaken and someone was yelling my name. I jerked out of my dream to see Nick standing over me. Worry clear across his beautiful features. I didn’t realize that I was crying until he started hugging me and saying that I was safe. I wrapped my small arms around his hard torso. I didn’t tell him so he wouldn’t let go, but I felt completely safe and happy in his arms.

“You scared the crap out of me Jason.” He said into my hair. I smiled and felt my cheeks heat up slightly.

“Sorry..” I whispered softly into his hair.

“You don’t have to but it would make me feel better if you would let it out. My grandma always says it’s better to let things out...” He trailed off at the end, not wanting to push me but obviously torn about seeing me in such a state.

“Well, my dad was an abusive alcoholic and he used to hurt my mom and I. He came home one day after being at the bar with his friends and he was furious. He had seen my mom out at lunch with her brother and he thought she was cheating on him. He beat me and then tied me to a chair and silenced me. He raped my mom and beat her to death. Then he just fled from the house. That was two days ago and I haven’t seen him since then. I know he will try to get me so that I won’t tell anyone what he’s done.” I looked up into his eyes and he looked infuriated.

“I won’t let him hurt you. Where did he hit you? We have to find him. I have to be ready to protect you.” He was having an anxiety attack..

“Hey nick?” He looked at me as I rubbed calming circles into his back. The muscles in his back relaxed slightly and he took a shaky breath.

“Thanks..” he mumbled. Blushing bright red.

“I don’t know about that. He hit me everywhere. No we don’t have to find him. No you don’t I will be fine.” He looked up with wide eyes and pulled me into his lap. Burying his face in my hair.

“I’m really sorry.. For that and for this. I don’t know what's wrong with me but I’m not usually like this with people. I just need to hold you for a little while.” He sighed as he hugged me to his chest. I could hear his heart beating at a fast rhythm. Slowly lulling me to sleep again.

Nick’s POV

        I held him in my arms until I felt him drift off to sleep. Laying him down on the bed I layed next to him and started to read Don’t Blink by my favorite author, James Patterson. What was wrong with me? I’ve never cared about anyone so much or needing to touch someone so strongly. When I was not with him I felt empty. When he told me about his father I felt all weird and hot. I had an anxiety attack and he calmed me. No one calms me except my mom and gramma. It takes them at least half an hour though, it took him a few minutes.

        After a while of reading and more thinking about Jason I felt him stir beside me. He opened his eyes and I couldn’t stop myself from brushing the hair from his face.

“You know? That was the best I’ve ever slept in my life. Usually I feel unsafe or I’m plagued by nightmares but I felt so safe and I had no nightmares. Did you stay here the whole time?” he looked so rested and happy.

“Yeah I did..” I looked away feeling embarrassed.

“Thank you.” He looked at me and then mumbled something that sounded like ‘that must be why’ or something along those lines.

“Are you hungry or anything?” His big eyes looked up at me happily.

“Yes yes yes!!!!” He was literally like a small child. Or a puppy. I started walking into the kitchen to make some food when he looked at the time. “Oh my gosh its really late.”

“You can stay here tonight if you’d like and we can do our homework together.” I looked over at him to see him looking down at the floor with a blush and a small smile on his lips. Maybe I can figure out what is going on with me.