Sweetheart

.chapter 6

so guess who's back out of jail. Having good behavior after S.H.O.E really helps. I'm at my Mimi's house. The drunk bitch is never home... so now I'm basically taking care of myself and my brothers because none of them know how to cook. ( Oh Yeah I have 3 brothers 17, 15, and 12. The 15 year old is my twin Carson) Being the only girl in the house you learn things.

I'm cooking dinner and there a knock at the door and Dakota answers it (17 year old) Storm It's for you! ( Oh Yeah if I haven't mentioned my name is Stormie but everyone calls me storm because I can be a real "storm") I walk to the door and I hear. " sweetheart I heard you got out so I thought I would come see you."

dont get me wrong I loved that he came and saw me but at the same time..  He never has come to see in jail or answered any of my calls,  so why did he just show up when I get out?

We all sat down and ate dinner together, and of course on of the boys had to ask why. Jaylen was there so I stuck my noise in it too find out why too.

JAYLEN: well when I heard that storm was out I had to come see of she was Okay.. Seeing the fact that I knew you mom is never home with you guys.

I got overly mad and said, well I don't need your stupid fucking help if you cared so much then why didn't you come see me. I don't need your help here but I needed it there. I was alone I didn't have any friends there I don't get along with people and you know that. you know What's so Fucked up  actually none of you came to see me not Dakota, not Carson, not Liam. none of you, Mimi didn't even come see me... I had so many tears rolling down my face. I ran to my room and locked the door and fell on my bed. Thought to myself No one actually loves me.

a few minutes later Jaylen walked in and laid down next to me and kissed my shoulder. I turn my head up too look at him and as I did I said go away. He simply shuck  his head and pulled me up and laid me on him. And said the reason I didn't come was because it scares me more than anything to see you in there. you look so sad. like a lost puppy who has No where to go. because you don't know the way. Trust me I wanted to be there and I tried.  but the first time you were there I didn't see you. I saw this scared girl. and I thought well I know that storms not afraid  of anything.  And when we talked you Weren't my sweetheart. This demon inside replaced that.  when I looked in your eyes I saw pain. and I hate when I see that.

THAT'S NOT A FUCKING EXCUSE JAYLEN! I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT YOU SAW! IF YOU LOVED ME YOU WOULD HAVE CAME! JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T LIKE TO SEE ME SAD DON'T MEAN YOU CAN'T COME!  I NEEDED YOU! I NEEDED YOU TO TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE OKAY! AND THAT TO LET ME KNOW I'M NOT GOING CRAZY! I NEEDED TO KNOW YOUR VOICE WAS REALLY AND NOT JUST ANOTHER THOUGHT IN MY MIND! YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN MY ONLY FRIEND!  I NEEDED YOU TO BE MY FRIEND THERE EVEN IF YOU WEREN'T THERE ALL TIME! I NEEDED YOU TO ANSWER MY CALLS!  TELL ME THAT YOU STILL LOVE ME!  I DON'T EVER WANT TO HEAR THAT IT WAS HARD FOR YOU! BECAUSE WEREN'T THE ONE IN THERE I WAS AND YOU DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT BEING HARD!

After Jaylen got up and walked out the door and slammed it and I heard another door and then a Car door. I laid back down on my bed rolled over and fell asleep.