Y O U R P O V
I opened my eyes , but quickly shutting them close because of the light , i groaned because of my alarm that was going non stop , i shifted in my bed switching it off , sighing i kicked away the sheets so now i was sitting at the edge of my bed , what's the use of going to school , i made my way to my bathroom , twisting its door knob i let myself in , staring at my own reflection , grimacing at how awful i look , brush my teeth then i wash my face and i untied my bun letting my [your hair color] locks to fall lazily on my shoulders , i grab my hair brush , brushing my hair so i'd look presentable , getting out of the bathroom , i make my way to my closet , biting my bottom lip while thinking on what outfit i should pick for today , i grab some black ripped skinny jeans along with an over sized white sweatshirt , slipping on my shoes , i shuffled down the stairs already seeing my mom in the kitchen making breakfast as usual
"good morning sweetie" she smiled
"morning mom" i said back running my hand in my hair
"how would you like your eggs" she asked , how good would it be if i finally ate
"no thanks mom , i'm not hungry, besides i have to go or else i'm going to be late for school"i simply said while getting up from my seat then pecking her cheek before heading out , i caught sight of Emily , Matt later showed up pecking her lips , and they left , i frowned still not understanding why she would do this
"what a bitch right ?" a familiar voice spoke , i turned around to face him , his dirty blonde hair slicked back perfectly , wearing a black v neck with some jeans with a silver watch that hugged his left wrist
"huh?" i responded not knowing what he was talking about
"you know , your friend how apparently turned out to be a bitch for stealing the guy you've loved for years , aka my brother" a smirk appeared on his pathetic arrogant face
"i don't know what you're talking about" i scoffed crossing my arms over my chest
"don't play dumb with me babe, its so obvious how much you like him , remember that night freshman year , at this party when you almost-"
"okay okay Mccann" i raised both of my hands in defense then cutting him off before he brought back any embarrassing memories from the past
"you're so cute when you're pissed off" he licked his lips before staring deeply into my eyes making me feel uncomfortable
"thanks ? i guess" i giggled as i start walking ,heading to school
"you still didn't answer my question" he said walking beside me
"what do you want me to say Jason?" i sighed hoping he would drop it already ,
he shrugged
i stayed silent for minutes not wanting to start a conversation with him
"its just i hate seeing you like this" he broke the awkward silence , my eyes winded as soon as these words came flying out of his mouth
"you what ?" i snapped at him for how much of a hypocrite he's being
"you hate seeing me get hurt huh ? well if that was true why where you up my ass for years trying to bring me down?" i hissed at him leaving him speechless , we stopped walking and i stood there glaring at him
" i said i was sorry" he clenched his jaw looking down
"well sorry won't make it up for those situations you've put me through" i said back fighting the urge to cry i turned around ready to leave just when i felt a tight grip on my left wrist pulling me back
"don't walk away from me " he whispered , his hazel eyes which now turned black , i stood there without saying a word , gulping slowly , i felt his minty breath in my lips , getting goosebumps i finally spoke
"let me go" i whispered , i finally snatched my wrist out of his grip , he stood there looking nowhere but at me
"what's wrong with you" i said practically begging for his response
"nothing" he mumbled finally looking away , there's no way he's fine
i shook my head not wanting to go further into the subject , i let out a deep breath i didn't knew i was holding and i started walking away from him
J A S O N ' S P O V
she looks so good today , just as any other day , the fuck are you saying Mccan ?
i shook my head at my idiotic thoughts , the things this girl does to me , the way she bites her lip when she gets nervous , or the way she blushes every time someone compliments her , the things i'd do to her , fuck , yes i have been bullying her for years , doesn't mean i meant to right ? i've made some mistakes in the past , let's face it i was immature and selfish , thinking only about how it would affect my image if i hung out with her , crazy isn't it ? if i told you how much i regretted doing this shit to her , but i can't .. i just can't , she won't be safe , i don't wanna keep hurting her , she's been through enough because of me, i promised myself that i would do everything and i mean EVERYTHING to protect her , she's mine and only mine , nobody else's , i hate how stupid my brother is for letting her slide under his watch , she's perfect , she's pure and beautiful , are you going soft now Mccann ? i shook my head once more trying to deny my feelings for her , but i just can't , who knew the one and only Jason Mccann could feel ?
its just i have the tendency to push away the people i love..
fucking hell did i say 'love' ?
