I would have blurted it out. But apparently now the rules have changed, the game has changed. Those thoughts, those feelings that we have all locked up in our minds. Those have mostly changed. I could see her just standing there, with her sly smile, knowing that i couldn't just stomp all over this and forget it. Nobody can forget this.
My heart racing at full pace. Why has this moment in my life change me so much. I used to figure out so easily what to say. But apparently now the rules have changed, the game has changed. Why? Why me? It could have been anybody else to tell, but she choose me. Why did i hate that so much. Earlier i would have loved it.
But i guess that now that i have him, i need to tell him. She knew, and she didn't give it the benefit of the doubt. He has changed me, i need to tell him. But then again, why? why her? She's the one who started all of this. She could have kept it to herself, but she had to make me aware of her little mystery. And he was the one i couldn't talk to about this whole nonsense. Why? Why him? He was just as innocent as a rabbit eating carrot. How could he know what was waiting for him. But what if? What if i could tell him. What would she be able to do to me. Would i be relieved of this darkness she has put me in.
No. Even though i could tell him, he wouldn't want to hear it. He would push me away and try to forget about this. I would try to forget about this. But nobody can forget about this.
