Secret Star

Chapter Sixteen

Rylee's POV

I've been sitting here for about 7 hours with only a few breaks, this whole event takes forever, I have no idea how the boys do this all the time.  I did have fun watching them perform though.

"Bye mom, I love you. I'll catch a flight home once I help Rylee." Cameron says.  I feel bad being the only thing keeping him in NYC, but I can't be alone right now.

"Hey, you ready to go? The boys are staying for one more night, they head out tomorrow so if you want to annoy them tonight is the night." he chuckles at me.  I really just needed space, but I know that the boys can cheer me up.

Cam grabs my hand and everyone heads up to the room.  I hope Cameron doesn't mind me sleeping his bed again.

"Ryleeeeeeeeeeeeeee, help me." Taylor is yelling while running away from Aaron.  I look at Cameron and he shrugs.  These guys are crazy.  We all meet up in Matt and Carter's room again.

"I say we sneak out tonight." Matt says

"Where is your favorite place to go?" Cameron looks at me and the boys turn their heads to me too.

"The park." I say too quickly.  It really is my favorite place to go, but they probably think its lame.  I blush.

"That actually sounds fun, we normally don't do that." Jack J says and I silently thank him for agreeing with me.

We head to our rooms to get ready.  Searching through my bag I don't have anything to wear to the park.  Cam throws me a pair of sweats and a shirt.

"Thanks." I give him a hug and head to the bathroom.  The clothes are a little loose, but not too bad.  I walk out of the bathroom to the room full of the boys.

"Woah." Cam says.  He wraps his arms around my waist, "You look quite stunning." he chuckles.

"Why thank you." I giggle at him and the rest of the boys clear their throats.

"Can we go now." Taylor says bitterly.

We sneak out in twos, if security sees us we are busted.

"Cameron, I need to talk to you." I hear Nash say and Cameron sneaks out with him.  Its just Taylor and I now.

"I guess your stuck with me." he chuckles.  "Lets go." he says taking my hand in his.  It feels awkward, nothing like how Justin or Cameron's touch feels.

"Unfortunately." I mumble.

"I like you." he blurts out.  Wait, did I hear him correctly.  Why did Nash have to take Cam from me.

"My life is really complicated right now."

"But you can sleep with Cameron? Right." he chuckles bitterly and leaves me standing on the sidewalk.  The tears well in my eyes.  Why the fuck does everyone always have to put me down?  I run up past the guys not stopping because Taylor is with them.

"Rylee!" Cam runs after me.

I stop once I reach the park.  I was going to swing, but I think about Justin so I decide to sit on top of the slide.  I am not sure if the boys are still coming, Cam let up a few minutes ago.

"Rylee?" its Cam's sweet voice.  "Come down that slide and tell me what happened. Was it something Taylor said or did?"

I slide down and so do the tears on my face.  Taylor is Cameron's friend so I don't really know what to say.  Hey you're friend likes me and accused me of sleeping with you?  No I was not going to say that to him.

"Why does everyone feel like its okay to put me down?" I could barley get it out through the sobs.

"Honestly I don't know, but those people are sick. I was bullied in school and to me those people are cruel. You deserve to be treated with respect." he pulls me into him.  Looking into my eyes he says, "Why did you hurt yourself?"  I remember the day he saw my scars, no one else has ever seen them.  I've never talked about this with anyone, not even Justin.