Moving to London (Discountined)

Chapter 20

Kaylieghs POV

I told Andy that I wasn't gonna sleep in the same bed as him, and that I would sleep on the couch hoping and praying he would offer me his bed but when he didn't. HRVY offered me his though, and I could tell it hurt him but he hurt me by leaving me to deal with this pregnancy by myself. The worst part is that he hasn't even said he was sorry for it. It was killing me not to sleep in the same bed, and it was also killing me that he thought taking off was ok especially when they had tour. He let his fans down and his bandmates. Lets just say Blair wasn't the happiest when he found out I was pregnant, and that Andy had disappeared because of it. I would only sleep in andys bed while he was gone so i dont know how well im gonna sleep in HRVY's bed. Since i have been awake all night i decided to go and lay down. Once I laid down, I tried to sleep. I finally fell asleep, but I was very restless. I guess I was alseep just enough to not feel the bed move or hear the door open from when Rye and McKenna came to check on me. When I woke up later that day, Andy was beside me in the bed, and I was cuddled up to him. The thing is, I don't remember him getting in bed with me or anything else for that matter. I scooted down to the end of the bed to get up, and I guess I woke Andy up in the process because he asked me where I was going. I lied to him and said bathroom. I was actually going to talk to McKenna since I didn't know why Andy was in bed with me.

When I walked out to the living room, McKenna was sitting on the couch next to Rye. I immediately asked why Andy was in the bed with me. McKenna started explaining.

*conversation*
McKenna
Me

Why was Andy in the bed with me?

Well when I went to check on you earlier, you where tossing and turning and saying 'I want my Andy.'

I can't believe I said that and why did you think it was ok to let him sleep in the bed with me knowing I didn't want him in the bed with me?

Well considering when I tried sitting on the bed with you, you about punched me. I figured you would rather punch him than me right now. Plus when Andy walked close enough to you, you stopped tossing and turning and just slept. When he tried walking away, you started crying in your sleep saying 'Don't leave me alone. I love you Andrew Fowler.'

Wait. I actually said that?

Yes, you did.

Holy crap. The first time he heard me say that I love him was in my sleep.

Well let's just say his reaction was priceless, he just smiled ear to ear and couldn't stop smiling. Speaking of the devil.

*Andy*
What are y'all talking about?

Nothing.

Just how she said I love you in her sleep last night.

McKenna!

What?

Hey! I loved hearing it though, especially since I told you that at the airport earlier today.

Yeah, Kayleigh you left that out of our conversation earlier.

Sorry, it was just that I was tired and was feeling hurt and didn't know what to do when he told me. To be honest with everyone in this room right now, I LOVE ANDREW ROBERT FOWLER and NOTHING is gonna change that!

*end conversation*

I can't believe I just told everyone that I love Andy. I mean it's a good thing but it's just terrifying that everyone knows. I just want my life to be stress free for me and my babies right now. I don't want to have a miscarriage again. I love these kids more than anything in the world. I mean other than Andy that is. He's the one that I will always come back to no matter what. He's the only person that I have actually gave my heart to and have felt safe doing so. He's also the one that I want to grow old with and marry his butt along the way. I know we haven't known each other that long, but I never want him to leave me again. Being without him, killed me the past month. I could only sleep in his bed because it smelled like him. Andy doesn't realize that I'm terrified that he's gonna leave me again when it goes and gets tough. When I saw him at the airport, I wanted to so badly walk up and kiss him, but I couldn't because of the girl he kissed. Speaking of her, I need to talk to Andy about everything, how I'm feeling and how he feels about everything. I love this guy but he has broke me. I'm scared to fully give myself to him again. I'm not gonna be the girl he runs to when he needs or wants sex or anything else for that matter. I want to be his one and only, the one he comes to first and the one he loves more than anything in the world. I'm scared that he just said he loved me so that I would come back and not leave, even though I had been trying to leave for hours but that wasn't happening. In all reality, my body is still numb from Andy saying he never loved me. And I don't know how long I will be like this because that hurt more than anything. That hurt more than when Brad broke my arm and beat me to the point of no return. I still have some bruises from that, and it has been a month since all that happened. I still have nightmares from that. I know that Brad is in jail, but I'm scared he's gonna get out and come after me or my family. I feel like he will try to take the most important person in my life, McKenna. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something really bad happened to her. He has already stabbed her once. I don't need anything worse happening to her. I have this feeling that he would come after her and cause her immense amounts of pain since she beat the shit out of him.

I need to stop worrying about all of this though. It isn't good for the babies.