In Love With My Bully(Wattys 2017)

Chapter 26-medicine

Mia pov

I was sitting with kelly watching tv with a bucket of her coughed up blood she was slowly losing her hair so she would wear a scarf on her head and I still found her to be beautiful me and she thought different her parents have been taking her to chemo but I think deep down inside she doesn't wanna take I think deep down inside she knows she's gonna die and that's so scary because I love her I love kelly I can't let her go.

She grabbed the bucket and threw up again I rubbed her back and grabbed the bloody towel and gave it to her to wipe her mouth she was suffering and it was crazy of me to want to keep her alive because of my selfishness because I knew she was in pain and wanted to leave but I didn't want her to we haven't really had that talk yet but I'm pretty sure it will come up

When I die I want white roses in my casket.she mumbled I gently squeezed her hand and rubbing circles around it I laid my head in her neck

Mia-

Kelly please not right now.I whispered my eyes shut

We're gonna have to talk about this someday and if not sooner because my time is running out and-

Everybody's time is running out second by second minute by minute hour by hour day by day time we all can't get back. I whispered

Kelly I'm dying I'm in pain every muscle in my body hurts and I'm soar and I'm losing my hair and I'm not beautiful anymore-

Kelly you will always be beautiful no matter what but I can't let you go I just can't. I said shaking my head my voice starting to crack

I've tried making peace with this as best as I can and for me you have to do the same it's the only way I'll be at peace Mia.kelly said grabbing my face

Kelly it's not fair.I cried

I know but I have to accept the fact that god is calling one of his angels home maybe there's a better adventure up there for me something more beautiful and magical then I could ever imagine.she smiled with tears coming down her eyes

So your still gonna do the treatment. I asked

No all that's doing is making me sicker and killing healthy cells that will soon be nothing but dust.she said then she took off the necklace that she had on and put it on me it had two rings on it

One is for love one is for hope there suppose to be our wedding rings but I won't make it that far so there you go.she smiled looking at the I looked at them then looked up at her

Kelly. I called she hummed in response

Marry me. I said she stopped playing with them and froze she didn't say anything for at least a minute

M-m-marry you.she said I nodded my head

Mia my parents and your parents aren't gonna let us.she said

I got them but will you marry me. I asked she bit her fingers then nodded

Yes Mia I will marry.she cried I hugged her but heard her wince and let go

Sorry I got to happy. I smiled then added "whatever dress you want and wherever you wanna get married it's your world baby girl"

I got the perfect dress but I wanna get married.....on the beach.she smiled I smiled and hugged and kissed her softly we hear a knock at the door

I'll get it. I said and got up I walked to the door and opened it to Jessica and Victoria

Hey wassup guys. I smiled

Wassup.victoria smiled and dapped me up Jessica walked in to kelly

Aye I got something to tell you-

OMG kelly Your engaged.jessica shouted

Your engaged congratulations bro.victoria said hugging me

Thanks man. I smiled

Aye we gotta tell Ryan you know we doing a bachelor party club full of bad bitches and drinks-

*cough*

And a bible.victoria said coughing while finishing her sentence with a innocent smile I shook my head and walked in the kitchen grabbing a bottle of water and Victoria came over and sat on the island I drunk my water and sighed

You okay.she asked

Yea. I answered with no emotions

The truth Mia.she whispered

The truth then no but there is nothing I can do about it. I shrugged then I added"so hows the baby"

It's great hormones tho is kicking my ass.she sighed

Put isn't Jessica the one pregnant. I asked

Her emotions are the one kicking my ass.she laughed she added"But have you two talked about this"

Yea and we know what we're gonna do she doesn't want a big wedding she wants a nice small wedding on the beach with friends and family. I explained to her

Are you mentally and physically prepared.she asked

Yea wedding is a breeze nervous tho. I chuckled shaking my head drinking my water

That's not what I'm talking about Mia.she mumble

Then what are you talking about. I chuckled looking at her crazy I never really seen victoria give me this look before it was a comforting and painful and emotional look almost the same look she gave me with Jessica but this look was more difficult and strange

For her to die.she whispered letting a tear fall from her face while looking at I never really had to deal with death like that I never got asked that question I don't think I've had time to fully come to terms with it or to fully prepare myself for that I've been to busy living life not even thinking or dreading that day to realize that she was dying in front of me and I was totally obvious to it I chuckled and shook my head and took a big gulp of my water

To tell you the truth no Victoria how do you think Jessica's gonna take it. I asked her

I got Jessica she's already emotional as ever but I think she needed to see her to have some closure.victoria said looking at the talking and laughing

You know the the funny thing is I see no imperfections in her I see beauty I see a beautiful warm heart that's slowly fading and will bloom into a beautiful red rose and how much god knows I want to see it but unfortunately I can't but that bloomed flower is always in my heart I think the sickest and sad people are really the strongest flowers waiting to bloom and trust me it's a beautiful thing that sometimes you can see but at the same time you can't touch it because at the same time their to bright for others to touch and I find in magical. I said I felt someone wipe my face a tear fell and I didn't even know I looked beside me to see kelly smiling she kissed my shoulder and hugged me and we just stood there in each other's arms while Jessica and Victoria smiled and watched but in my mind it was only us and that's how it will always be forever

Shit I cried when I wrote this I'm sorry I need a minute