He Made Me Feel (Boyxboy)

Ch. 9 Never Felt this

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Ch. 9 Never felt this

(Jesse POV)

What can I say? I had the chance to kiss him, so I took it, and I damn well have never felt that way before.

When he ran out, I honestly felt my heart clenched.

I didn't want to scare him, but the chance was there, so I had to take it. I also asked if it was okay with him, although Ben said yes. I know he ran the way he did because he was still nervous.

I've never ever been with a man before, and I've kissed plenty of girls.

Those girls had nothing on the kisses I just had with Ben.

I could hear Ben moving around in the kitchen while I sat on the couch, searching for a horror movie on the T.V.

I would be okay with this becoming something I would find myself doing often.

When he told me he didn't have any friends and had never been in any form of relationship.

That hit me and urged me to prove I would be his friend. Heck, I'll be his best friend, and I damn well want to be in a relationship with him.

I decided to steal some glances at Ben in the kitchen; he looked cute while cooking.

The fact that this man is so cute.

I turned around and looked through the horror movie options on the T.V. to see what I could find.

I saw a movie called The Poltergeist and noticed it was released in 1982. After reading the summary, I decided to go with it.

I hope he liked the choice of the movie I picked.

When I was told I would be interviewed by a journalist, I didn't think much about it, but when I saw him, for some reason, I found myself wanting to get to know him.

I haven't been this happy in a long time. My mother always told me to hold onto anything that made me happy and giddy. I knew that I wanted to hold onto Ben.

I wanted to know him, his likes and dislikes, favorite colors and foods, and what he wanted but had yet to do.

I felt a lot of things for Ben; it was insane because we had just met.

Yet, it felt very right, and I would be a fool not to act on these feelings.

Ben was making me feel that way. I would not run away from something like this or be too scared to pursue it. No, I was going to do the opposite. I want to pursue what I felt with Ben because I knew he felt the same way.

Although I was shocked that he ran away after I kissed him, it was like it was his first kiss or something.

I was happy that he allowed it again, especially seeing the emotions on his face.

I was so lost in thoughts that I didn't even know he was done cooking and placing the food on the coffee table until he spoke.

"I see you picked the Poltergeist. Nice choice, it's an old movie but I think you might like it if you haven't seen it." He said while he sat down next to me.

My eyes widened, realizing that he was next to me.

I turned to face him and smiled.

"So you've seen it before? Are you okay with seeing it again?" I asked Ben.

"Yes, it's fine." He said.

I don't know what's coming over me, but I want to kiss him, especially when he's near like this.

I immediately kissed him on the cheek and whispered in his ears,

"The food smells so good. If you keep treating me like this, I'm not going to want to leave." I didn't look at his expression but picked up the plate and ate.

"Let's watch the movie," I said between bites of the food.

I took a glance at him to find his cheeks red.

I held back a smile; he had better get used to this because I would definitely be very affectionate with him.

"Thank you." He said softly. I let out a small laugh.

"I'm pretty sure I should be thanking you. You've been nothing but nice to me, and I like you a lot. I feel like I'm being spoiled. I can't wait to see how spoiled I get treated when I reach boyfriend status." I said, shooting my shot. There was no way in hell I would let this opportunity slide away.

"You're serious about this, how?" he asked.

"Yes, very serious," I said, chuckling.

"Let's see what gave it away. Was it the kisses? The way I praise you? Or the way my eyes light up when I look at you? Or is it how you suddenly have made me feel something I have never felt before?" I asked him, giving him my full attention.

I wanted him to see how serious I was about this and seriously wanted to invest in this.

"Are you sure? I mean, I'm really nothing special," he said, and I rolled my eyes.

"Well, you're wrong about that, because you're something special. I am completely serious about what I said and I want to know a lot about you. I am serious about becoming your best friend and you becoming mine. I want to know about you and I promise you, you will learn things about me too." I said to him, smiling.

"Okay, we can give it a try," Ben said, and I felt overwhelmed with a burst of happiness.

Ben will need a lot of reassurance, which I wouldn't have a problem with.

"I didn't think you would be interested in knowing about me, especially my past," he said, and I shook my head, grabbing his hand.

"I would love too," I said with sincerity.

"Okay, but it's kind of a sad story," he said; I stayed quiet for a bit; the look on Ben's face showed me that whatever his past was, it was not for the weak or for someone who was just a passerby.

"It won't change how I feel about you now," I said; Ben stared at me briefly before he smiled softly.

"Okay." He said.

(*Kassandra Speaks*)

Sometimes, when people tell you they want to be in your life, you wonder why. Telling them you're no one special and you're not important can leave you needing clarification about why someone would be interested in you in such a way.

No matter what you think, there are people out there or someone out there who would love to know about you, love to be with you, love to be your friend or someone who talks to you. So when you find someone like that, don't push them away. Give them a chance. This is a little advice to you all.

Until the next chapter, Doll! Vote, Comment & Share.

xoxoxo

-Kassandra Vivu