Adventures Without Maeve

11. The Letter

Harry, my dearest Harry, if you are reading this I am terribly sorry. My heart is filled with sadness, so much it feels as if I cannot simply carry it anymore.

If I could I would turn back time, although I am not sure it would have helped all too much, but I would give anything to not see you cry.

I think in a way I have loved you long before I met you. I can just feel it when I look at you. It's just a feeling, as Indie would say. And she was right that day. We have been waiting for each other all this time. I have been waiting for you for as long as I can remember.

I may not be with you now, but know that no matter what happened, no matter the reason you are reading this, I still love you. I have always loved, H. So fucking much it feels like I can't breathe. Please never doubt that. I loved you up until my very last breath.

H, there are some things that maybe don't make sense. And I know you probably have questions. But I cannot answer them all. Go to Indie. She can answer them. She knows more than I do.

She never told me that she knew. But I have known Indie my whole life, it was easy to see when I looked her. She knew that I would die. I watched her heartbreak every time she looked at me. I never said anything. How do you tell someone something like that? But I am certain that is what she warned you about.

Daemon, he is so kind, and I can't bear the thought of him crying over me. Please make sure that he is okay. If you need to, get him out of that hell house. It's not good for anyone there. Maybe even get him out of the country. He could use some new places. But be sure that he is safe, and happy.

Your mum, I love her so much. She was like my own mother. She taught me so much about life. Please let her know that I love her, always. I have a bag of things for her in our room. Right under my side of the bed. I am sure she will love it!

Niall, what a sweet boy. Make sure he doesn't miss me too much. We had some great conversations. And make sure him and Destiney stay happy. I really do love them together. I have a gift for him too. Check in the closet.

Zayn, I didn't expect to become as close with him as I did. But I love him nonetheless. Let him know that, okay? And make sure he ends up happy. I worry about him a lot. There is a gift for as well! All the gifts for the boys are in the closet.

Liam, oh how I love that boy. Him and Sophia warm my heart. Make sure they stay happy as well. And make sure he goes easy on himself. He beats himself up over the small things.

Louis, I will miss him. He has a way of making people laugh. And a smile that warms hearts. Help him find someone good for him. I don't want him to be sad. Be sure to help him too.

Jay, oh gosh. I don't know how to describe her. She meant the world to me. Also like a mom to me. I hope that her wedding goes well. It has been in the process for so long now. I would hate to not see her happy. Let her know how much I loved her. And be sure to let her know that I will miss. Her gift is next to your mum's.

Indie, she can be a handful, I know. But I love her so much. We haven't been speaking for a while now, two months. But I still love her dearly. Please let her know that I could never hate her.

And lastly, you. The most important of them all. I love you. I could say it a million times and not once get tired of it. You meant the world to me, H. You made me feel so strong. You were my everything. And I never want you to forget that, okay?

And please, never forget that you aren't alone. It will seem so hard at times. But you have so many people who love you. And the fans. They will always be there for you. Don't leave them out.