Still loving you

Nothing To Say

There’s no need to say anything. You’ve already answered that when you were the last one to leave. We were all shocked, especially Leeteuk hyung. He thought Super Junior would last forever, but it looks like it won’t as it is losing pieces as the years pass. He cried. Did you even think of the consequences when you did it? You clearly didn’t. You just grabbed your jacket and your things and walked out the door, without even looking back to tell us “Goodbye!”, to tell me “Goodbye!”. A part of me hates you for this, but the other one is still in love with you, because that side is still living in the past and thinking about the old you.

Donghae-yah, look what your stupid revenge has done to you. Do you like what you’ve become? I saw the pictures on the internet of you getting out of that club and I’ve heard those rumours about you being rude to some fans. Please, whatever you do, just don’t take it out on them. Have me. Kill me, punch me, stomp on me, throw me off a bridge, do whatever you want, just don’t involve the world in this shit.

Baby, I wonder if you still remember all the times we spent together, if you still think about me as much as I think about you, if you still have my heart. Did you forget? I gave it to you a long time ago and you promised you’d take care of it. If you still have it, then why does it hurt so much? Is it your heart that beats in my chest or did you take it back? If it is, then I’m happy, not because it shows that you still love me, but because you won’t be the one that’s hurt.

Now, while reading this again, I realize I’ve said too much. I’m actually writing this because I wanted to tell you two words : Happy anniversary!. This would be our fifteenth, remember? Live well and I hope this letter gets to you. When it does, don’t contact me. Hyoyeon might erase any message from you or not answer your calls. She’s still mad because my love for you turned me into a fool. “