Dear Best friend

I don't understand

8/7/18

We've known each other since 5th grade and now we are going to be juniors in high school together. I've rewritten this letter a million times, so here goes nothing:

       Incase you haven't noticed lately our friendship has been like fighting off a shark. Why? I have no idea but maybe it's because of what happened the very last week in may. I had the urge to text Kay. Why? I missed her. Simple. You told me no because of what happened last time and I should've just said ok and let it be but instead I kept going.

Before all of it went down we had mutual trust and respect for each other. But then everything stopped. My life paused for the longest time but to be specific it paused for 2 months. It felt like my world crashed down and couldn't be fixed.
      But more importantly you stopped...
You stopped texting me, you stopped trying to fix it and every time I tried texting you about it, you stopped. You stopped it before it began. Before I can apologize and you just crashed that idea. Do you know how it felt? It felt terrible.

I fuck up a lot. I'm not perfect I know that but at least I have the strength to admit I did wrong.