October 10th 2004, she was born a beautiful baby girl blond hair and blue eyes. That day could of been her first and last but she survived by her Nana who had lost her finger nail to the umbilical cord that was wrapped around her neck twice. She always had known she was special and unique in so many different ways.Her life was almost perfect until 2011 when her baby brother was born she felt alone when they were with the baby because they were always with the baby. After a while she got used to her new brother and realized that they will never give her a lot of attention anymore.
In elementary it was easy cause nobody knew what bullying was. The first time she got picked on was in 3rd grade for being fat, not smart, hardly any friends, and not being rich with all the cool new style clothing. After a while her few friends left and never talked to her again. This hurt her very much, but she was going to be strong.Then after awhile it got worse in 5th grade. It was worse now because people said meaner things she could not stand it. She tried to not eat, but she was starving herself and she knew it was wrong. She felt like a outcast, freak, dumb ass, stupid, and nothing important. She had bad grades but she did not care and she did not understand any of the work because during class all she thought about was all the mean things people said about her and she had thought about suicide all the time.
In 7th grade she was getting worse per year it was way to hard. By now she has friends, they love her so much, she feels a bit happy. But she knows it won't last long ever because she has to be fake around everyone including her parents and family. She started to get picked on by a kid named Eli. Eli started by name calling and then he took it to a step up exposing her. And then he crossed the line by taking pictures of her on the bus when she turned around and he used those pictures of her to cut the head off and replace a different pic and placed the head on. One of the pictures were of a really fat person with her head on it. The second was of two people having sex and had her face and her friend Ethan on it.
She tried to kill herself but her girlfriend Alison, told her to STOP and because she loved her she listened. Eli ended up being expelled after her mom found out that she was cutting and asked what was wrong so she told her mother.Now she feels a bit more safe at school but not at home. Home is a different story, her mom works 8 to 9 hours a day, 5 days out of 7 and when she gets home she is almost always pissed off because she always messes things up before her mom gets home.Now she has a therapist at school and out of school. She is 13 years old and wants to die, and she knows she will regret it if she does kill herself. She doesn't know if she will go to hell or heaven.
