I was staring off to space. I can't do this. I don't want to do this to him, but i have to. Because he will suffer more if i don't.
Me and Jimin are here having a picnic at the park. He's making a fool out of himself by doing stupid things.
I smiled at the sight but it vanished by the thought of it being the last time. Then tears rolled down my cheeks but i wiped it quickly with my hands. I don't want him to see me cry.
I stood up from my seat and walked towards him.
I held his hands and make him look at me. He's sweaty but he's still cute. He's still my little chimchim.
I'm sorry Jiminie.
"Why so sad Chaeyoung? Are you not happy with our date?" His eye smile disappeared when I looked away from him.
"I'm not happy with you anymore jimin"
I'm sorry for lying to you jimin.
"I realized that I don't love you"
i'm so sorry.
"You don't make me happy anymore"
it's for the best.
"I am so ashamed for being with you"
this is a lie.
"You're so stupid to not even realize i'm just using you"
It's all a lie.
"We're over Jimin. Move on." I said and turned my back on him.
He was calling me. I know he's crying. But there's no turning back now. I need to do this for him. I need to do this even if i don't want to.... I will steal have to leave him.
I have cancer. And I'm leaving. I'm going to Australia for my Therapy. I don't know why my parents want to do this, but i know to myself that i'm going to die.
I'm not strong enough to handle all the chemotherapy When I know to myself that i'm at stage 4.
So what's the use of being with jimin when i won't be with him forever.
I will write letters for him.
Even If he won't be able to read it.
Just to tell him how I love him.
Just to explain everything.
Just to tell him, I never wanted this...
...But I don't have a choice.
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