Chapter 1~ She's here...
My mom says when I was a baby I always cried before I fell asleep. And she always knew what that cry sounded like, thats why she always knew what to do. Now the person that knows what to do is me...
Mia shivers in my hands as I pick her up from her crib, she lets out a little whimper which lets me know that she wants to be in my arms. I haven't slept at all. I haven't even closed my eyes for some rest. This little thing is mine, shes all mine. That thought scares the crap out of me. What if I mess up? Am I ready to be a father? All I wanna do right now is run into my mom"s room and have her hold me like I'm holding Mia right now. She's gonna look up to me when she grows up, she's gonna have boyfriends that I have to scare off, Am I ready for that?
Samaad and Ameen come over today. They make weird faces at Mia which makes her scream and curl up in my arms. I give them a look that tells them to stop.
"So have you heard from Angela?," Samaad asks. My heart pounds at the mention of her name. The doctors don't think she's gonna make it. I'm praying she does, I need her.
"Nah... I'm gonna visit her in a couple weeks with Mia," I reply. Samaad nodds. I've been friends with him since I could remember. He's tall and has carmel color, he dread locks fall down to the middle of his back. I ain't gonna lie, he is good looking. My mom says hes beautiful. We have walked down the street together and girls literally stop walking and just stare at him.
"Can I hold her?," Ameen says breaking the silence that had formed between us. I stare at Mia in my arms, she's awake but she ain't used to the light yet so she doesn't open her eyes. I gently position her in Ameen's arms and he starts slowly rocking her back and forth. Ameen always liked kids, he once told me her wanted seven kids, I of course looked at him like he was crazy. He walks to the window in my room and stares down at Manhattan's busy streets.
"So your gonna keep her?," Samaad asks. I stare at him long and hard before I answer...
"Damn right i'm keeping her, damn right," I say. I was gonna be the one to see when she learns how to sit on her own, when she first crawls, when she first walks, and when she says her first words. I'm not gonna miss that, I'll be here to see it all.
"I would keep her too man,"Samaad replys. Ameen nodds in agreement.
Yeah I'm gonna keep her. This little thing is stuck with me forever. I smile at that thought. Mia Angela Carter is gonna look up to me. And that scares the crap out of me.
My house always smells like food. My mom is from New Orleans so her cooking is the bomb. Today shes making fried chicken with mash potatoes and gravy. My favorite. Mia is laying on top of me on the couch she keeps moving around so I sit with her instead. She opens her eyes and I gasp. Her eyes are jus like Anglea's. Big and blue. A tear rolls down my face. Great i'm losing my manhood. I honestly love Angela, she was my everything. And she needs to wake up.
"Hakeem why are you crying?," My mother asks as she walks into the living room. I don't reply at first, I just keep staring into Mia blue eyes.
"She opened her eyes and they are just like Anglea's eyes," I finally said. She sits next to me one the couch and starts patting my back.
"You miss her huh?," My mother says after a while of silence. I nodd in response cause I can't get any words out.
"Everything is gonna be ok Hakeem, don't stress about to much. You are to young to be having grey hair," She chuckles a little. I can't help but stress about it. What if she leaves me forever? She has to be here to see Mia grow up, she just has to be here. I can't lose her.
My mom gives me my dinner and I go eat it in my room while Mia lays in her crib staring at her tiny hands. After that I feed Mia and I rock her to sleep.
"Mommys gonna be okay Mia, shes gonna be okay," I whisper to Mia before I drift into a light sleep.
A/N~ I'm new to this crap soooooooooooooooooooooooo someee Comments to what i did wrong or what you dont like would be great....!!! :D if you lik it you still gotta comment!!!
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