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45 Days Before

45 DAYS BEFORE

"So how was your date?"
I peer over my wine glass, to see my friend Alex staring back at me, a smirk on her face and one of her perfectly waxed eyebrows raised.
"Alex that was like, over 2 weeks ago." I try and not laugh.
"Yeah well i haven't seen you since we found Peyton and i want to know the goss." she says sweetly.
My face falls and my mood darkens at the mention of her name, but i try and brush it off.
"Um well, he was a prick. We split the bill, he spent the whole time looking at my clevage and he got really drunk." Alex looks so surprised, seeing as she was the one who set me up with her brothers friend. "Oh and wait i didn't tell you the best part," she sits back in her chair knowing its going to be bad. "as we were leaving he grabbed my ass and so i had to bitch slap the crap out of him to teach him a lesson."
She holds up her hands defensively and mouths a sorry, before her smirk returns to her face. I bite my bottom lip and raise my eyebrows daring her to say whats on her mind. Which she does.
"Did it leave a mark?"
I laugh, "Damn straight."

We laughed until our stomach's hurt, and our wine glasses were empty. We called the waiter over and he topped up out Merlot Cabernet, and we fell back into easy conversation.
"Oh my godness you will never guess who i saw walking down the street yesterday?"
"David Haden's new sexy young assistant?" I say, knowing Alex is crushing on this boy toy.
"Hmm yum," I can't help but laugh, "but no. Elliot." She looks me dead in the eyes, no hint of amusement in hers.
I choke on my wine and place my glass back on the table before answering.
"What was he doing?" I choke out.
"Looked like he was working, had a handsome devil of a partner with him might i add," I purse my lips and chew on this information for a second, when Alex's voice filters into my thoughts. "You should totaly bang him to make Elliot jealous."
"Yeah okay." I say sarcastically, "Elliot is married i highly doubt he would care." I scoff.
"Okay subject change."

We sit and gossip for another two hours before deciding to call it a night. I hail a cab back to my apartment and let Fin off the hook, with his babysitting duties.
"Thanks again Fin." i give him a soft smile.
"No problem baby girl, i did eat all your left over pasta though." I chuckle and see his eyes light up, as he watches me laugh.
"That's okay. Was Noah okay?"
"Yeah he's still not back to his cheerful self but he's better i guess." I can see his heart ache for my boy, and the fact that he can't help him breaks him even more.
"Well hopefully we can withstand these last couple of days then huh?" He nods in response and heads towards the door.
"Night Liv."
"Night Fin see you tomorrow." he closes the door behind him and i sigh making my way to my bedroom, checking Noah in the process.

I jump in the shower and then crawl into bed.
9 more days.

* * *

Another 6 meals, another hour long counciling session. Still no phone calls, and still not allowed to leave. No more crying myself to sleep because now i just don't sleep, I just let the words of my demons surround me, engulf me and slowly drive me insane.

Sufferring this, just to see Noah all of a sudden is starting to seem like its not worth it.

9 days left.