Ah when you have no friends or anyone in your life that cares about you and you question whether they ever did to begin with, when the only people you've known have used you and abused you but you question whether your the problem. You hurt anyone who gets close and you lose all the people around you, and when you lose people you lose yourself. All you do is sit and play video games and eat junkfood 24/7 just waiting for the day when your organs will finally shut down and stop keeping you in this pitiful existence called life with no silver lining insight. Your parents verbally abuse you and are living in the past holding sexist and inequality values from the 1900s that you'll never believe. When your entire family on both sides has literally all been divorced and was and are still currently on drugs or an alcoholic. When your ashamed to call yourself an american for the stupidity of the country. When your born with a caved in chest, have astigmatism, flat footed, and overall just a stick who can't gain weight or do any physical labor but is still ridiculed for not being able to. When your antisocial and have literally only known assholes in your life and have been hurt and bullied so many times that you have trust issues and issues being able to care properly. When because of that your idea of how to care for the only person that ever gave a damn caused you to hurt them and to drive them away. When you think to yourself everynight after its all over "I deserve this." Then maybe..just maybe..you'll understand who I am.
