Time (Ethan Dolan)

Chapter 51 - She Was Loved

I walked into school alone. My head was down. I could feel the stares on me as I walk pass everyone. As I quickly make it to my locker the halls turned quiet. And I still didn't look up. Soon, the halls were empty.

My mom wanted me to stay home for a little longer. But, I didn't want to have time to think. I wanted Carson out of my head. And I guess coming to place where majority of our memories were, it wasn't a good idea. Because I looked up and I looked down the hall. I saw her locker.

There were flowers and pictures and notes all around. And I knew if Carson were alive, she would say they were stupid. I walk over and I begin to take down the flowers, the notes, the pictures. Half of the people didn't even know her.

"What do you think you're doing?" I hear a voice behind me.

I turn around and I see Sage. He had his arms crossed, he looked tired. He had looked like he had been crying.

"They didn't know her."

"Isn't that how it works?" Sage asks. "Everyone begins to care when you're dead. Then they forget about it a few days later."

"And she doesn't deserve to be treated like that-"

"I know." He said. "I know."

I drop everything on the ground. I lean against the lockers and I slide down.

"How have you been feeling?"

I look up and I send him a strange look. "Why do you care?"

"Because what happened is fucked up." He answered softly. "I don't blame you for her death. I'm not going to stare at you like some monster. You knew her better than anyone else did, and that's hard for me to admit."

I kept quiet.

Sage exhaled as he looked at her locker once again. "At least she died loved." He cried. "I guess that's what makes it feel a little easier."

"Will it ever get easier?" I ask.

"It will. It has to." Sage nodded. "I don't know if I can handle feeling like this everyday."

I nod. "Me too." 

He begins to pick up the flowers and everything else. "Ill put these in the trash. We'll do it the way she wanted it."

"We'll get in trouble."

"Fuck the system." Sage laughs sarcastically. "She would have wanted it this way and we both know that."

I smile softly and Sage smiled back. He helped me up and we picked up every last bit of it. After that we went our seperate ways. Sage... Was okay.