After we had arrived at the park and walked around for a while before we both got tired and sat down. The small bench we sat on was comfortable and gave us a view of the gardens in the park. My parents never let me leave the house except to go to school so I’d never been anywhere. I was completely mesmerized by how beautiful it was and I was wishing I could come everyday. Sammy’s urgent voice interrupted my calm thoughts and startled me.
“Look I know you’re going to ask so can you just get it over with.” Sammy said looking anywhere but at me.
“Ask you what? Why your being so nice and when your going to ditch me? I mean yes, I know that this has to end sometime but I wasn’t going to ask. I just want to enjoy it while it seems real.” I said narrowing my eyes at him. His head snapped up and his eyebrows pulled together in confusion and anger.
“What! You’re going to leave me before I even think about leaving you! We both know that…” Sammy yelled before calming down.” I’m so sorry baby- sorry, I mean Ariali.. I didn’t mean to raise my voice I just..” He got up and growled before slamming his head on a tree. He was so aggressive towards himself and it hurt me so badly to see him in pain.
“Sammy, stop please!” I cried getting up and grabbing his hands in mine. He had some scratches on his forehead and when I saw them I couldn’t help but let the tears fall.
“NO! Please, Ariali don’t cry I’m fine, I’m sorry please. Please.” He looked into my eyes and cupped the side of my face. The look in his eyes just melted my insides and before I could stop myself I kissed him. I’ve never kissed anyone in my life but I knew how to peck somewhat. I stepped away and saw the shock in his eyes before he smiled and wiped away my tears.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to worry you by crying but it hurt me to see you get hurt. Please don’t do it again.” I found my self-saying it as he seemed to make me stop thinking. His face turned serious as he searched my eyes to see if I was lying and for the second time I caressed his cheek before kissing him again. This time it wasn’t just a peck and when I pulled away I was slightly breathless. I looked at him to see the happiest look in his eyes that I’d ever seen in his eyes before.
“I won’t I promise. I never want to hurt you again, and I’m so ashamed that I ever did.” He said looking down at the ground sadly. I put my hand on his cheek and when he looked up at me his eyes looked brighter.
“It’s okay. I completely forgive you.” It slipped out of my mouth before I had a chance to say otherwise. It’s not that I didn’t forgive him, every time he hurt me I forgave him because I love him. I just can’t be convinced that this may all be just some sick joke.
“I love you so much Ariali.” Sammy leaned over and hugged me. I couldn’t say it back yet because it was just to soon but I said it in my head. I really wanted to tell him how I felt.
“Sammy, I think I may…” I trailed off to afraid to say what I felt.
“Love, I know that you don’t feel that way and that’s fine, I understand. In all honesty I wouldn’t love a person like me either..” He looked away as his jaw tightened.
“Don’t say that and don’t look so sad. It actually hurts me to see you like this. Please Sammy.” I looked at him pleadingly and when his eyes wavered I took hold of the side of his face and made him look up at me. “Hello? Earth to Sammy! Did you hear what I said to you?”
