After our incident Ariali went back downstairs to make food and I decided to take a shower. I walked downstairs to Ariali and told her I was tired and went back upstairs to take a shower. When I was done I came out and looked for a towel since there were none, thinking Ariali was downstairs I ran out to find one. I growled in frustration when I couldn’t find one and the door burst open as Ariali ran inside. She looked around frantically looking for what she thought had hurt me.
“Sammy! Oh hey I… Woah..” Her eyes ran down my body slowly and came back up only to stop at my genitals. Her eyes widened and she looked up at me before swaying and tilting to the side. I jumped forward and caught her just as she fell. Forgetting I was naked I picked her up and put her on my lap as I sat on the bed with her. She woke up a few minutes later and wrapped her arms around my neck immediately.
“Hey cuddly I had a dream that I saw you naked and you had a huge thing and I started to think dirty things and then I don’t know what happened after that.” She opened her eyes to look at me and when they traveled down my body she inhaled quickly before scooting off of me and looking down. I tried to cover myself with my hands but I’m not normal sized so about half stuck out and I couldn’t do anything about it. She started hyperventilating again and I tried to calm her down quickly. I felt bad and couldn’t help thinking that it was somehow my fault.
“Ariali it’s fine just relax. What’s wrong, Is it because it’s so huge? I know, I’m sorry I can’t help it..” I trailed off after my rant feeling my cheeks heat up from embarrassment.
“Your so hot cuddly.” She jumped onto me and started kissing all over my face. “Every part of you is perfect especially that.” She said between kisses.
“Your not mad or anything?” I asked feeling my shoulders droop.
“No! Just kinda worried though. I mean I haven’t lost my virginity and now it has to be to a guy with an oversized.. Well, at least your more fun.” She said giggling and looking at me before realizing what she just said. She blushed intensely before she ducked her head and started to walk away. I grabbed her waist and pulled her back down and when she squealed I couldn’t help but laugh at her.
“Stay!” I commanded before jumping up and putting on some boxers. I turned around to see her staring at me with wide eyes and her lips slightly parted. “Butterfly?” I said searching her face.
“I can’t do this..” She mumbled before grabbing her pillow and walking out of my room quickly. She quietly closed the door behind her while I stared after her, confused.
Ariali’s POV
With all that had happened, I couldn’t sleep in the same bed as Sammy or I would jump him. When he turned around all I could do was stare at him. He said my name with his deep soothing voice and I cracked.
“I can’t do this..” I mumbled as I grabbed my pillow and walked out of the room. I shut the door quietly behind me and went into one of the spare rooms. Turning on the light to reveal a beautiful queen sized bed and purple shades. I closed the door and got into the bed putting down my pillow before un-tucking the covers and snuggling in. As I started to drift off to sleep I heard the banging of doors as Sammy searched for me. I could care less, I was falling for him and he was just going to end up hurting me. Everyone hurts me and he’s just taking longer to do it. Finally, my door banged open and the lights flicked on. I whimpered and seconds later Sammy was at my side.
“What happened baby! Are you okay?” He questioned me looking into my eyes for an explanation.
“Just leave me alone Sammy. I want to be alone and I was trying to sleep.” I said, annoyed that he woke me up.
“Okay baby. I’m sorry I just.. sorry.” He said quickly before standing and walking out. I turned back around and ignored the dying feeling in my heart as he walked away and turned the light back off. I tried to fall back asleep but I could hear Sammy sobbing and grunting. It annoyed me until I realized he was probably hurting himself again. I jumped out of bed and ran to his room. When I put my ear to his door I could hear him talking to himself. He was cursing and saying he was a screw up and he deserved to die for hurting me. I burst through the door right as he started slicing his wrist and when I saw his gory, blood covered arm I doubled over and fell on the ground.
“Why?!! You may not realize it Sammy but you have me wrapped around your finger. I feel what you feel, so when you do that I hurt to but it hurts me more twice as much.” I whispered before breaking down and sobbing uncontrollably, gasping for air.
“Baby, I’m so sorry. I just thought I hurt you I’m sorry, I know I should have more self control. I’m so sorry but don’t leave me because I may die.” He said as he looked at me sadly.
"I won't leave you if you stop this. It puts me in so much pain it feels like some one is stabbing me repeatedly.” I looked at him intensely before smirking. I ran my pointer finger down his chest and he shivered as his breathing faltered. He looked up at me and I started to move my head towards his. I lightly kissed his lips as I caressed his hair. “I love it when you lose control,” I said and he growled before gripping the back of my neck and hungrily kissing me. I couldn’t do this with him while he was hurt, I needed to clean him up first. “Stop,” I cried breathlessly and Sammy pulled away immediately.
“Did I hurt you? I’m so sorry baby.” Sammy said quickly. I chuckled as I let him stare at me looking indubitably confused.
“No, cuddly I just need to clean your arm up. I don’t want to hurt you.” I said smiling weakly. He frowned and got up walking to the bathroom and getting gauze for his arm. I started wrapping it while I tried to hide the pain I felt. A tear fell from my eye and I quickly wiped it away and finished. When I looked up Sammy was staring at me intensely.
“Ariali, I need to know.. Do you love me? You really act like it and it’s killing me not knowing how you feel about me.” When he said killing me I instinctively reached out and grabbed his hand in mine.
“Yeah.” I mumbled not being able to look at him. He took his hand out of mine and I panicked as I snapped my head to him. Does he not love me, or does he not want me to love him? I knew this was fabricated.
“I love you so much that words can’t describe how I feel towards you. I would die if you ever left me.” He whispered as he brushed a strand of hair behind my ear. I melted into his touch and moved to sit on his lap. He picked me up bridal style and carried me down the stairs to the movie room.
“I actually don’t know how I feel towards you. I just know that I really care about you.” I told Sammy as he settled down. I wiggled to get more comfy and he sucked in a breath. “Sorry,” I mumbled. Here we go again…
