Behind the Pain

Shock

Andrea P.O.V

Let's just say these last couple of days where I'm meant to be relaxing have been totally shit. If I'm not thinking about my appointment, I'm thinking about this whole messed up situation with Marshall.

I haven't had the nerve to call him and organize to meet up to work this stupid situation out, but neither has he. I thought he would want to work this out since he was trying to get me to stay the other night but I haven't heard from him at all, I'm just grateful that before we nearly had sex on my desk he gave me the rest of the week off, least I can avoid it for a little longer before we have to go over to the Netherlands for a week or so.

I don't know if I was avoiding it because I'm embarrassed or if I was avoiding it because I know how this is going to turn out like, Marshall is going to tell me that he doesn't have feelings for me, nor does he want a relationship and the best thing we should do is drop it and forget it even happened.

By the time Thursday came i had all the information I needed to decide what I'm going to do with my life, Jordan has been amazing these last couple of days supporting me and trying to be here for me as my boys and I enter a new chapter of our lives. It is known Most people after getting some bad news tend to avoid dealing with it for as long as possible hoping it will go away, but I know since being a single mother I can't run away from things that scare me and as much as I hate to even think about the future these days I know I must face all these problems that we are about to be faced with strength and courage, knowing my sons are looking up to me and deserve a mother who isn't going to give up on them or life.

But as much as I try to circulate everything around this new problem and set back that has just appeared, I knew I couldn't put of talking to Marshall any longer, so I sent him a text to meet up and hopefully chat.

Me: hey can we meet up later tonight, I need to talk to you

Marshall P.O.V

" hang on so you guys hooked up ?" Royce asked listening intriguing as I told him what happened between Andrea and I. These last couple of days have been hell, all I've been able to focus on was Andrea and how to handle this situation that has turned so messy.

" yeah, but than she freaked out" I stated sadly remembering so fealty the hurt and regret in her face when Hilary interrupted our moment together. I've been wanting to call her and try to explain everything but after remembering her face, I know giving her space is what she needs to think about all this and try to realize how much I actually liked her

" why'd she freak ?" Royce asked making me hate myself even more for bringing it up, not wanting to go through all the details of how we were this close to finally being with each other.

" Hilary was constantly ringing but I was ignoring it until Andrea got it out of my pocket and unfortunately she looked at the screen and was shocked to see a half naked woman on there" I explained recalling the moment she saw my phone and looked Devesated to see that woman on my screen flaunting her stuff, even though I didn't want to I had to answer the phone, knowing it would be slightly rude not to after I have been basically using her to distract me from thinking about Andrea when I'm not working. You see they look very similar in looks so it's easy to get lost imagining it is Andrea while she is giving me head.

" ouch! no wonder she freaked out" he answered, straight away already understanding why she freaked out, even when I don't completely understand.

" I'm guessing that message is from Hilary?" Royce asked knowing I had just received a message from someone and since he know Hilary is my current he obvisiouly thinks I'm sexting her or something.

" nah it's actually from Andrea, she wants to meet up later, she needs to talk to me" I replied knowing that it is going to be about the other night and that it probably won't be a good chat. Andrea is very Mature for her age and I just know she isn't going to want anything to do with me, but as much as I hate to talk about these kind if situations I know Andrea deserves some explanation, and hopefully we can work this shit out.