So locked up in my mind.
Running from memories I tried to leave behind.
I'm so far from breaking free.
This moment right here was meant to be.
Me finally breaking down with no escape from it.
Only feeling what I have left behind bit by bit.
It all hits me without a warning or sound.
Creeping up on me like a ninja is around.
Suffocating me from the breaths I need to take.
Locking up my mind so it has no way of it being fake.
Knowing everything is going to hit me twice as hard.
Feeling every emotion like it's a sharp shard.
I feel nothing hit me in reality.
Weakness is becoming my mentality.
All that fills my mind.
Is all this emotions that i have left behind.
Never wanting to be this way.
But it's something im going to take in day by day.
All this is making me go insane.
Feeling nothing but this forgotten pain.
I want to hit my head against a wall.
Waiting for the moment of my big fall.
I want to escape my mind because this is far too much for me to handle.
Needing a vice to go along with my flamming candle.
I always knew I would have to go against myself one day.
Just didn't know that battle would be today.
