I never loved you » Chae Hyungwon

Chapter XXV

Song of chapter:
8 Letters - Why Don't We

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Just like that those 3 words leave his mouth, he just looks at me waiting for an answer but as hard as I try nothing comes out of my mouth.

It's like my lips are glued together.

"Sorry that was stupid to say, I'll take it back" He then says.

"No no, it isn't stupid... It's just that.. I don't know what to say" I say nervously.

Just tell him you like him too

"It's okay, if you need time to think I'll wait, I waited for you for so long already so a little more time is okay" Hyungwon says and I just smile.

I'm so god damn into this guy and he doesn't even realize how head over heals I am.

I just cup his face and kiss him, that's right, I took the first step to kiss right now.

His right hand goes to the back of my head and his other goes to my lower back.

This is perfect, everything is perfect.

But he is still a mafia boss.

Still my biggest fear and biggest enemy.

This boy has hurt me like no one else did but he made me feel loved like no one else did.

I hate him, but love him so so much.

He'll hurt me again in the future I'm sure about that.

But for now.. everything is perfect.

I know that, he knows that.

Our gentle kiss comes to an end and he leans his forehead against mine.

"Is this an 'I like you too'?" He asks and I smile.

"I guess so" I say.

"Faith.." His raspy voice makes me want him so bad.

"Yes?"

"What have you done to me? I am crazy for you, I'm so fucking crazy" He says and I laugh silently.

"I don't know what I did, but I'm happy it worked"

"Gosh you are so perfect" He says looking me in the eyes.

"You are more perfect" I say.

"But your perfection is infinite, so I can't be more perfect" He tells me and I don't know what to say anymore.

He has never been this nice.

He then grabs my hand and signs me the stand up so I do.

He takes me downstairs to the kitchen where he just turns to me.

His hands hide in the pockets of his suit pants.

I stand in front of him really awkwardly, a part of me wants to have him so bad, I need him. But the other part tells me to stay away and have space.

He clears his throat.

"I love you, but.." he pauses for a couple second before he speaks up again.

"I can't be with you, I still am a mafia boss of the rich Chae family, we don't date nor fall in love.
Only if we're ready for it, and that might take a couple years, my dad will choose a lady for me, that's how it works"

I can fell my eyes getting watery, those were the words I didn't want to hear.

I bite my lower lip and nod.