I see Grayson's car at the front of the school. I know my house isn't so far away, but, my mom and dad wanted me to start getting rides with Grayson. We had to start taking the long way home to avoid Carson's house. They had wanted me to erase her. They didn't say that, but I knew it was what they were doing.
"How was your day?" Grayson asks.
"Awesome." I reply.
I could feel his stare on me. But I ignore it. Instead I kept my eyes out the window the whole way home. Trying to avoid any conversation.
When Grayson pulls into the driveway he sits for a second.
"Are you okay?" He asks.
"Super." I reply.
He rolls his eyes. "For a second, could you not be sarcastic?"
I shrug with small laugh. "What do you want me to do? Break down and cry? Without the sarcasm, that's what I'll do."
"That's okay-"
"No." I spit. "No it's not okay. You're all treating me like there's something wrong with me! Like I'm sick!"
"You're not sick, Ethan."
"Then quit treating me like it." I get out of the car and so does Grayson.
He follows me inside and slams the door shut.
"You know being at the balcony that night wasn't so easy for me too." He stares.
I stop in my tracks and I wait for to speak.
"Seeing you like this hurts me, Ethan. I'm so sorry that you lost someone you love. And I'm sorry that I don't understand what it feels like. But, I'm here. I care about you." Grayson cried. "You can talk to me."
Tears fall from my eyes. And instead of turning around and hugging Grayson, I went to my room. I wish I didn't, because I really needed a hug. I needed comfort so bad.
When I reach my room I collapse on my bed like always. I stare at the ceiling as I begun to weep. And I remember the words I said to her, the last night we had spent together.
It's not living, if it's not with you.
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Time (Ethan Dolan)
Fanfic"Three days, Ethan." She whispered. "Three days until I'm supposed to meet the one I'm supposed to be with." "We can make it work." I cry. "That's not how it goes."
