She loved him for 3 years
All of him.
She stood by him through the radical diagnosis
To the drug addition
To the court hearing
To all of his abuse.
Each morning she did things for him
And only him.
Made him coffee and did his clerical work
They were not in the job description
But yet, she did it.
Because she loved him
Because she cared.
They all knew how she felt about him
The whole hospital.
They pitied her for loving such a man.
A man who is heartless and a jerk.
A miserable man with only one friend.
A man named Wilson
A man who he constantly abuses.
Poor Wilson takes it all in.
Such a kind man as he that he let his friend
Badly treat him.
So different from the one she loves.
He couldn’t accept her feelings.
Thought her feelings were immature and unreal.
Thinking that it was a student mentor kind of crush
A puppy love.
He once told her that she was only attracted to him for his flaws
It was a need to be fixed.
He never really understood her feelings for him.
He never really knew how much she loved him
And how much she cared
If he did, he would have realized how deep they were
Why she stayed for so long when she didn’t need to.
She came back once and stayed longer than expected.
She knew she should’ve have but her heart told her yes.
Her heart had a desperate need to be so close to him
To have him be near him at all times.
She knew she would never be with him.
He would never let it.
But if there was a small chance
A chance to be with him
She would take it.
She would do anything to be with him.
Do anything for him.
If only he knew.
If only he cared for her
If only he loved her like she did.
She fantasized a kiss from him.
Though she knew his lips were rough, they were also soft.
To have him look at her with those beautiful blue eyes
Before they kiss is like heaven to her
A kiss from him would be ecstasy.
If only he knew what he does to her.
How much she wants him.
To be with him.
But instead, she stands from a far.
Waiting for him
To notice her
To realize her feelings for him
To see the true version of her
The one who sees the true version of him
The one that loves all his imperfections
The one that loves him.
If only he would see her
And see her true feelings for him
But until then, she waits for him.
Even though, the waiting is like a eternity
She waits because she knows he is worth
The wait.
Because a love from him is all she would ever need
And could ever want.
