She walked out
Out of his life
Forever
He wanted her to stay
But it was not the way
He was too damage
Too damaged for her
He pushed her away
Knowing it would hurt more
Thinking it was for the best
For both their sake
In the end, it was he
He was hurt
For he knew he was reason
For all of it all.
If only he let her in
Even if it was for a small hole
In his heart.
He knew he hurt her
But he had to do it
To protect her
To protect himself
From the pain
The heartache
From himself.
He sat alone in his office
Hours after she left
She left him for good
This time, there was no coming back
No sorry and no date to bring her back.
Her resignation was not just professional
It was also personal.
She had given up.
Given up on him.
He hurt her too much
And she had enough
Enough of the abuse he gave her
Enough of the pain.
He wished he said something
But he was too much of a coward
He wanted to tell her.
He wanted to say something, anything.
To say that the last 3 years were something.
That he loved her more than she could ever know.
But no words would come out.
Instead he let her walk away.
Away from his office
And away from his life.
He wished he could take it all back
To turn the clock backwards
And tell her how he really feels.
But he knew it was not possible.
Scientifically.
And because he knew the outcome would be the same
For he was a coward
And nothing more.
For 3 years he led her to believe
He didn’t care.
He didn’t love.
HER, all of her.
He pushed her away like garbage
Further and further away.
Until she couldn’t take it anymore
And left him.
She left him to be with a wombat
A man who barely a man
Whose barely a doctor.
At least not on his standards.
The wombat would never satisfy her.
For he knew, that the wombat was not who she wanted.
She wanted him and only him.
But it was too late for him, too late for them.
For he never told her how he feels and forced her away
Away from him.
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