!Warning! Details Smut and Self Harm!
(Before I start imma just say right now 1. This is my first story 2. Ik my brain is messed upppp😂 3. Colby Brock is daddy😏) also... sorry for any misspelled words😂 also! Your name is madi (not requested I made this up on my own)
Thigh gap? Nopeee
Flat Stomach? Nada
Big Ass? Definetaly nott
Big Boobs? Oh hell nahh
I hate my body. I'm living with my boyfriend Colby. And I'm also standing in front of a mirror in a bra and underwear, looking at my fat. Its disgusting. I haven't ate anything for 2 days now.
Colby tries to get me to eat, but I just go into the bathroom and throw it all up. I hate my body so much. Why can't I just be pretty? I seriously don't understand how I have such a hot boyfriend. Well... Colby shouldn't be home for another hour and i don't know what to do with myself accept for cry... I can't stop. It's as if I have no control and tears are just flooding out of my eyes.
I've moved to the bed, rocking back and fourth in a ball. Pathetic right? I know. I just don't know what else to do with myself. My arms and legs are soaked in my own tears. I was in the fam 5 house, in me and colbys shared room. It was at that moment I had an idea.
It wasn't a good idea, but it hurt so bad I didn't think about how I would affect anybody else around me. I felt...numb is the only way I can describe it.
I was now thinking about where I left my razors. I hadn't cut in a year but my wrists were screaming at me waiting to be sliced open.
I got up and went to our bathroom. I started rummaging through the drawers, when I found them. I got out a razor and i sat on the floor with my back against the bathtub. I can't stop crying.
I took the razor and i started slicing through the layers of skin. 1 cut. 2 cuts. 3. There was my blood gushing out of the 3 cuts I had just created It felt so good. I don't know why cutting helps so much because its terrible, but it felt great. The blood had gotten everywhere. But i didn't care.
Colbys P.O.V.
I had decided to come home early to surprise my girlfriend, Madi. I got her starbucks😄😏 I asked the guys if she had come downstairs at all and they all said no. I figured she took a nap or something. She has been kinda acting weird lately but I brushed it off.
I started to walk upstairs and into our room. Huh, she's not in here I thought to myself. I set the coffee down on the nightstand when I heard muffled voices coming from the bathroom. I walked over and opened the door to see my beautiful girl on the floor in a small pool of blood on the bathroom floor. "OH MY GOD MADI" I ran up to get her as fast as I could and wrapped my arms around her while grabbing the first aid kit. I grabbed the blade out of her hand and started to cradle her, not caring that there was blood all over me.
Madi P.O.V.
Colby caught me... he came and held me. It felt so nice. But he was so panicked. "Why?" He asked. "Because I'm ugly, fat, and gross and i don't deserve to be with somebody as amazing as you." I said. His face was shoked with a hint of anger.
"Don't you EVER say that again about yourself!" He kind of half shouted."you are one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen" he said. It hurt so much to hear seeing what I had done. I only hold colby back it seems like.
Then he picked me up and looked me deep in the eyes and i could see so much pain but also passion. he fixed me up and washed me off and then bandaged me up.
He then carried me to the bed. "how many times to I have to prove how beautiful you are before you finally believe me?" He said while starting to kiss my neck. Uh oh. Of course he made me horny. So things started to get heated, real quick. But it wasn't rough, it was gentle and passionate. As if he would brake me. Although it was starting to get rough.
He was rubbing up and down my waist while leaving hickeys on my neck. He gave me 2 that were quickly turning dark purple. And that turned me on more. I then tugged on his hair a little to make him let out a small moan.
I tugged on his shirt signaling him to take it off. And he lifted it over and around his head and reconnecting out lips. I was still in my bra and Pantys so he unclasped my bra for me (hes had practice😏) and began to massage my boobs. He flipped us around so he was on top and i was no longer on his lap. He stood up and removed his pants. I sat up and slowly started removing his boxers and his huge boner slapped his stomach and jiggled a little.
I started at his shaft and licked my way up to his tip. He let out a small moan. I then very slowly bobbed my head up and down his dick to tease him. After doing this a little longer he said "stop teasing or you're gonna get punished babygirl" so I obeyed and started bobbing my head faster and faster fitting what I could in my mouth and rubbing the rest of him with my hands. After a little while I felt his dick twitch in my mouth and soon after he threw his head back came in my mouth. He tastes so good. "Lick it all up babygirl" he said as I was taking him out of my mouth. "My turn" I said super sexually. He pushed my back against the bed and spread my legs apart while he removed my underwear with his teeth. Not too long after, I felt his tongue lick up and down my wet pussy, teasing me. "Colby stop teasing" I said. I hate it when he teased me. I felt him slide a finger inside me and i moaned in pleasure. He slipped a second finger in and was thrusting in and out pretty fast. While I was a moaning mess. He then slipped a third finger in me when I felt a knot in my stomach. "Colby i-Im going to c-cumm" I said in between moans. "Cum for daddy babygirl" he said loud enough for me to hear. And right after I hit my climax and moaned so loud colby had to cover my mouth.
Then he picked me up and put me doggy style on the edge of the bed and rammed into me so hard I threw my head back in pleasure. It felt so good I was about to hit my climax again. And colby could tell "me too baby hold it in a little longer" he said. He sloppily thrusted about 3 more times before I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like I was about to explode. Then we both released at the same time and a were both moaning messes.
He pulled out and we both collapsed on the bed panting like dogs. "Dinner?" He asked. "Fuck it" i said. Colby thought I was beautiful and that's all that matters I guess. So we got dressed and went to tender greens.
The End
I hope you liked my first story it took me all night so you better like it😂😂😪😪
Word count 1339 words woohoo😍
