(Please leave comments and let me know how my poetry is. This one that you are about to read is about a man who was like a second father to me. I lost him to a heart attack and would do anything to have another day with him.)
The sorrow that I show is full of pain. I feel as if you left me here all alone to deal with the world before me. I'm lost to it because of you. I feel as if you left me stranded on the side of the road. You were the melody in my ears, the piano that kept me moving and the wind that pushed me forward. It isn't enough for me. When you left everything crashed around me. My pried left me and I lost my soul and sanity. I want to hurt myself, I want to feel more pain. I show no emotion that seems so dear. I am haunted within my memories that I can't seem to look in the mirror. The girl that I see is a stranger, a shell of who I used to be. Some days I'm in denial and still believe you are here. I can't bring myself to say you are gone. I feel as if my mind is lost in a mist, I don't want to find myself coming back. The darkness takes hold and I can't bring myself to let go. I wish I could say my amends to you as I speak these words, but I lost the harmony within my soul. I am all alone. I wish to let go of you but its the only thing I have left. You were part of my childhood, a father figure I never really had. You were a good man. Always there for me until the very end. The lose of you has torn me to shreds. The day I was to face you in your coffin, I could not bring myself to see your pale face. I just could not bring myself to relive those memories. As soon as everyone left I sat in the sanctuary with a dear friend. As I saw the pictures I cried with my heart and soul wishing I could have seen you more just one last time before. A little bit at a time as I saw these memories flow by I let go a little more. I have one last thing to say after all these years of missing you. You are the whisper in the wind carrying me on my path. When I see life before me, it feels as if you are showing me my part. You will always be a wonderful, peaceful memory in my heart.
(I hope you enjoyed reading that. It took me a long time to have the courage to post this and see if people like it.)
