Lovato-Jonas

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-jade-

I've been homeschooling now for just over a week& so far I love it. I do most of the work alone online but on Tuesdays & Thursdays I have a tutor come help me. My tutors name is Mrs.Martin & she seems really nice so far. I mean I've only seen her three times so it's hard to tell.

I've been spending most my days with mom she's been busy with meetings & studio sessions. So most days I just tag along& do school on my computer until mom is finished.

I did actually spend the day with dad on Friday which was a nice change. He was in the studio recording a song& I did my schoolwork then we went out for lunch it was fun.

Today is Wednesday. I'm seeing a new therapist today & I'm still not sure how I feel about it. My old therapist was fine but my mom was worried because I wasn't really making any progress with her. So mom& mike decided that a new therapist would be a good change.

"I know your awake baby girl"Mom says as she walks into my room, taking a seat on my bed

"Ugh, go away I'm tired"

"Nope. Come on get up, we have to leave in 30 minutes. You don't wanna be late on your first session"

"Do I have to go?"I ask sitting up in bed,looking at her.

"Yes. I know your nervous but it's going to be fine. This is gonna be good for you Jade you'll see"

"I don't like talking to new people"

"I know you don't but she's your therapist jade she only trying to help you"

"Will you come in with me today please?"

"If that's what you want then offcourse I will baby girl, but you have to open up to her. Not talking isn't going to get you anywhere"

"I will I promise"

"Good, I'm proud of you! Now get dressed please"

"Will you pick me out a outfit please, I can't be bothered"

"Your so lazy"

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"Jade, calm down it's going to be okay" Mom tries to reassure me once again. I don't know why I'm so anxious but I am. We are in the waiting room of the therapist's office I should be called back any minute now& I'm terrified.

"Jade lovato" A woman calls from the front of the room, I'm guessing she's my therapist. Mom stands immediately pulling me up also, she walks towards the woman following her back to the office. I sheepishly walk next to mom grabbing her hand for comfort.

"Sorry she's very nervous"Mom says as we make it into the office.

"That's quite alright, it can be daunting seeing a new therapist. Well I'm Dr.Jules but you can just call me Sarah. How has your day been today?"she asks politely as we all take our seats.

"Fine"I say rather bluntly. I didn't really mean for it to come out that way but oh well

"So your 15 right?"she asks, I just nod in response "Okay. Diagnosed with severe anxiety& bipolar is that correct"She asks, I don't reply confused as to why she is asking. Surely she has read my file. When she realises I'm not reply she looks to mom.

"Yes that's right"Mom confirms

"Okay, so I see you have been previously seeing another therapist. How would you say that has helped you?"

"It hasn't"

"It hasn't? You don't feel like therapy has at all benefited you positively"She questions, I shrug my shoulders.

I can sense mom getting annoyed with me& Dr.Jules too. I'm just really not liking this. I no longer feel anxious,I just want this to be over so I can leave.

"What would you say your biggest struggle is?"She asks,I'm not sure how to answer so again I don't

"Jade, come on. Talk to her"mom says,nudging me to speak but it doesn't work. I can see in her eyes that she's disappointed. I promised her this wouldn't happen&it has.

"I can't help you if you don't talk to me. Would you prefer if your Mom went into the waiting room?"

"No. Can we leave?" I ask mom

"Baby it's not even been 10 minutes"

"I want leave" I say before, standing from my seat& walking out the door. I hear mom calling my name but I just ignore her& keep walking.

I walk back out through the waiting room. Everyone stares as I walk by. When I reach the foyer I run out of the building& head to moms car. I don't know what I'm doing, why did I run out?

As soon as I reach moms car I sink to the ground & let the tears I was holding back escape. I'm so embarrassed I don't know why I acted like that but I couldn't help it. I just couldn't do it.

Mom is going to be so mad at me. I promised her. PROMISED. We don't break promises & I did.

As my mind continues to race, I feel my breathing pick up& I know what this means. Just as my breathing becomes really unsteady mom apears at my side pulling me into her.

"Deep breaths baby girl, deep breaths"Mom says,immediately knowing what to do. I follow her instructions & try to match her breathing.

Slowly my breathing goes back to normal, I snuggle into mom not wanting to look at her. I don't want to see her face of disappointment.

"Come on baby, lets get in the car"She says before pulling us both up of the ground

I don't speak I just walk around the car & get into my seat. Mom just watches me as I sit back buckling my seatbelt.

"I'm sorry for acting like that, I didn't mean too"

"I know you didn't jade it's okay"She says soothingly as she holds my hand.

"But your mad"

"I'm not mad baby girl don't worry. It didn't work out & that's fine. Next time you just need to work on not shutting people out immediately.

"I know I'll try not too, I didn't mean to act like that it just happened"I say as I let a few more tears spill. I feel so bad, I acted like such a brat

"Hey don't get worked up over it again it's over now. We will find you a new therapist & try again but don't worry about it. Right let's do something a little more fun aye? Lets go see Grandma & Grandpa. You can skip schoolwork today, sound good?"Mom asks, I nod my head

A/N: I'm sorry that this is bad. I'm just terrible at writing therapy sessions so sorry if it is completely inaccurate i tried. I'm hoping to update again as soon as I can. Sorry for any mistakes. Comment&vote-K💙