Depressing Days

Birthday Rain

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Chapter 1- Birthday Rain

Honeymoon Avenue- Ariana Grande

"Let's Just Go Back To The Way It Was."

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I was shivering in the rain. It was raining on my birthday, most people would have a birthday party. Nope. Not me, birthday parties give me pain and even more depression. It brings back the memories I had with Kian. Him lifting me up so I could blow my candles. But, that's gone now.

I kept walking, no-one usually paid attention to me, why should they? I heard laughing. I could hear smiles. I could hear their footsteps splashing in the rain.

It was them. It was Kian. It was Sam. It was Jc. It was Connor. It was Ricky. It was Kians group.

I felt Jc's hands on my back, forcing me to fall, and that's what I did. I fell. Before they left they called me names. The names I carved into my skin.

I sat there. Broken-hearted. Shivering. Lost. Cold. Wanting to die. I heard someone walking. I got scared what if it was Kian? No. It wasn't. The person sat in front of me and lifted up my face. It was Luke. My only friend.

"Hey Luke." I said softly with a weak smile.

"Hey," he said gently. "Let me see your arms."

Not again. Luke always does this. Lifts up my arms and see if I've been cutting or if I have any bruises. It was Luke though. I lifted up my arms. He rolled up my wet sleeves and touched my scars. I yelled in pain. "Sh, sh, sh." Luke said calmly. He checked my arms, to see faded scars, new scars, and some old bruises.

He sighed. He carried me, through the cold rain. We arrived at my house and he let me down for a little while to open the door. He quickly picked me up again and closed the door with his foot. Luke didn't care if Kian saw him or not, but he ran upstairs to my room and slammed the door. Before he forgot, he locked the door.

Luke took off his wet jacket and shook his wet brown hair. I smiled weakly. Luke took care of me most of the time. He used to cut, but he said he's clean now. He walked over and took off my wet jacket. I was shivering, and I felt Luke's arms warm me. I rested my head on his shoulder.

I must have fell asleep, because I was laying on my bed. A warm blanket surrounding my body, I looked around my room and didn't see Luke. I sighed. Luke did leave me a note. Before I read it, I walked up and locked the door. I read the note.

"Hey Crystal...Sorry I had to leave, I had a 'family emergency' ill be back tomorrow. I left some food, so you don't have to get any. I hope you had a good sleep(: I would've changed your clothes, but that would've been weird. So. Yeah.

Love,

Luke."

I kept this note. Just like I kept every note Luke ever left me. He was just so sweet. I wouldn't have just thrown it away.

Even though, Luke made me smile. I was still depressed. I ran to my bathroom and opened the mirror and pulled my makeup bag. I searched for it and found one. I sat there. Slowly carving in the words "Slut", "Whore", and many more. I switched onto my other arm. I just did small little cuts.

I felt happy. Fully happy. I sighed and washed the blood away, I washed everything away. I washed my blade and put it back in my makeup bag. I heard a small knock on my door. "Who is it?" I yelled. "Luke!" I wasn't going to fall for that, that easily. I pulled out my phone and texted Luke, asking if he was here, knocking on my door.

He said replied yeah. I slowly opened the door to a smiling Luke. I smiled back and let him in. I once again slammed and locked the door. He sat on the edge of my bed. I sat next to him, close. Not too close though.

"Crystal." Luke said breaking the silence.

"Yeah?"

"I-I need to tell you some-" Luke said mid-sentence. I heard banging on the door. Luke got up and opened the door. I heard shouting and yelling, next thing I knew Luke was on the floor.

Kian walked in, mad. He slapped me. I felt hot tears on my face.

"Dont.Fucking-" Kian said mid-sentence

"What the actual hell did you do that for. You know what? Never mind. Dont ever step foot in my room again."

I said pointing to the door. Kian was so shocked, he just stormed out of the room. I felt good standing up to Kian. Then I saw Luke laying there. I ran to the door and slammed it shut. I locked it and sat next to Luke's body.

He was breathing, he was alive. I don't know what happened, but I tried shaking him. I obviously couldn't carry him, I let him lay down there. I gave him a peck on the lips and walked over to my bed. Trying to drift off to sleep again.

This chapter was dramatic, no?

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